Live.Love.Laugh.

Another good movie

2008-08-29T15:32:00.000-07:00

I rarely find a movie that entertains and moves me nowadays. And so I was thrilled to see one unexpectedly. I've always thought that Sex and the City was just another chick-flick, girl-power movie but it was so much more. Much much more. It's about friendship, forgiveness, breaking stereotypes and just being yourself. I was very very pleased. Truly another dvd worth collecting.

Total Manjoyment

2008-08-18T15:17:00.000-07:00

Need I say more?

Michael Phelps surpassed Mark Spitz's record by winning 8 golds in a single olympic game. Amazing!

Olympics Mania

2008-08-15T09:52:00.000-07:00

Well if you haven't heard yet, the 2008 Olympics has been the buzz, at least in our household. We've been obsessed with the swimming event ever since Michael Phelps has constantly brought home the gold and repeatedly beaten several world records. So far he is in his 6th gold medal on his way in doing what no man has ever done before.

Last night was another proud moment for the US for winning gold and silver in the Women's All around Gymnastics. We got hooked on this event shown last night until 2am. These girls have accomplished so much already yet they're still in their teenage years. Although the age limit for this particular event is about 15 years old, China's gymnasts look awfully young. There seems to be discrepancies between the girls' passports and reports stating she's only 13. Speculations are still to be investigated.

This is not the only thing China has been shady about. I've read that although the Opening Ceremony was beyond spectacular, the fireworks display was fake due to safety reasons. Another report says the singing chinese girl in the red dress wasn't her real voice. The real singer was replaced because apparently she wasn't cute enough for t.v.

Events as big as these wouldn't be without controversies just because the whole world is watching. Nevertheless, it is still entertaining to watch. I have yet to see the events where the Philippine team is dominating. Any medals yet? Is Pacquiao our only hope? :)

Tired of being yourself?

2008-07-22T20:00:00.000-07:00

Apparently this spoof is actually an advertisement for Absolut since Kanye's representing the brand. Don't care much about Kanye nor vodkas but the infomercial is funny.

Reality tv ramblings

2008-07-22T13:01:00.000-07:00

It's true. I've read again that Project Runway is switching to Lifetime. Heidi Klum apparently is "out" and Miss SJP, Sarah Jessica Parker is "in". She has a show almost like PR but will also showcase other forms of art such as paintings, sculptures and the likes. Oh well, at least PR wouldn't be completely gone. Judging from its huge fan base, they'll be fine. I hope. :)

Moving on to another reality show... Nashville Star is a new talent show on nbc. It's looking for the next country music star. Since one of the finalists is from our church, we have consistently watched and actually voted in support of our very own Coffey Anderson. I've seen this guy sing and genuinely entertain people through his songs. He may not be the best country music singer but he has a big heart. His performances have not been solid compared to others. He has pitch problems, and his style isn't completely country. He's more country/pop or hip hop but I like his style because he adds soul to country music.

Nevertheless our church is there to support him 100%. On Wednesday night, we'll be attending the recording of his concert held in our church to be aired on Monday. I think the contestants are supposed to go back to their hometown for their "welcome back concert"or something. Coffey chose to do it in the church instead. So we're hoping for a full house this Wednesday.

Follow the Pattern

2008-07-14T17:41:00.000-07:00

Finally! Project Runway is almost here. This is one of the few reality shows I devotedly watch up until its last episode. It's exciting to see how truly talented and creative one can be under abnormal conditions.

Unfortunately the show is transferring to the Lifetime channel, or so I've read from the PR blog. Well, the lack of publicity is quite obvious. They say that it has something to do with Bravo killing the show before it goes. I don't know if it's just a rumor, but who would want to let go of a very good reality show? I thought the show has been going strong. I think it's one of the best reality show there is right now. I just hope they keep this show running as long as they can.

PR 5 airs Wednesday, July15 8/9c

I'm back...sort off

2008-07-10T12:36:00.000-07:00

A lot of things has interfered from blogging. First of all my computer broke down. It has been almost a year since I decided to get a new one. A better one. We switched to iMac.

Other things came up as well. I became too lazy to update because everytime I tried to, someone else would interrupt. My daughter can read now, so it's kind of hard to type while someone behind you is reading it out loud.

And also, I forgot my username, password and all things associated with blogging. I'm starting all over again.

Well at least this entry made it through.

Family First

2006-10-22T15:39:00.000-07:00

Wow...it's been ages since I last posted. As I have said the good old lazy days are over, at least for this semester which is until December. Hopefully it gets better from there. But I'm getting a hang on this hectic schedule, it keeps me alive and busy. Days seem to just flee by the second. Glad I found some spare time to log in today. I needed some time off my books anyway. By the way, I'm not pretending to be all studious but the schoolwork is just insane. If I don't find the time to read each day, I'd be buried in it and would be very hard to pass exams.

Ok. I wanted to blog about Click,an Adam Sandler movie. I don't particularly like him and his acting but he made me look twice on 50 First Dates. That movie just swept me off my feet, made me laugh and cry at the same time. And so I heard that his latest movie made some of my colleagues cry. They assured me it wasn't stupid, like The Waterboy.

I had mixed feelings. Adam Sandler's acting was just bad. It's not like I didn't know what to expect from him but it was kind of inappropriate this time. There were times when his goofiness didn't seem right for some intimate and touchy moments. There was one scene when he was about to die. He was saying his final goodbye to his family, parting with words of wisdom to his children and apologizing to his then ex-wife when he stuck his middle finger up the ex-wife's husband.

But other than that, I thought the story was good. I love the moral lesson because it was truly an eye opener. Never make your job, money, material things more important than family. There will always be promotions. Money can always be earned and things will lose its value but the love of your family is the one thing that will give true happiness. Our loved ones are our most priced possession because without them we'd be rich, fat and divorced, just like Michael from the movie. It's easy to get swept away with all the things the world can offer but it should not stand in the way from showing our love to our family. That's why some rich folks still get depressed and drink their way to death because there would always be a void that money couldn't fill.

And so, as busy as my schedule is, we always find time to cuddle with my daughter, take her to wherever she wants to go and do the things she loves to do because her happiness comes first.

Stop and smell the roses

2006-09-14T17:54:00.000-07:00

A new semester has just begun. The toughest, most grueling one of the three according to prior students because of two major subjects, Medical- Sugical and Pharmacology. I wouldn't be as worried if they only required extensive reading and memorization but there's the dreaded MATH. Like driving, Math is and has always been my Achilles heel. I have struggled with it since highschool, ignored it in college and now it's back with swift and painful retribution which I am ready to face, win or lose.

I'm now in a world of books, painstaking hours in isolation, waking up before everyone else does and hospital duties. I make it sound like a jail sentence but I love it , this is what I chose to do and am fully aware of what I'm taking myself into. If it weren't for the Math part it would have been good. Well that's life. One thing I like is I don't have trouble sleeping. My body is so sleep deprive it feels drugged so whenever 8pm hits I'm out, dead tired. I usually have trouble sleeping before but during time of stress, sleep is the fastest remedy.

My routine right now starts at 5am and usually ends around 3pm. I stay for a couple more hours studying until the libray closes at 8pm. It's actually a good routine because aside from keeping on top of my reading I don't get stuck in traffic.

Starting the day early really requires discipline but once you get a hang of it, it's very beneficial because more things are done plus I can devote at leat 30 minutes to praying and just having quiet time alone in the car at the school parking lot while finishing breakfast. So it basically forces me to live a more balanced life compared to just running around aimlessly. Sometimes I get caught up and forget about nurturing my spiritual well-being and fail to realize that amidst the adversities I am still very fortunate and blessed in a lot of ways.

So thank God for a wonderful life!

Goodbye Mate...

2006-09-06T12:07:00.000-07:00

When Princess Diane died I witnessed fans balling their eyes out as the news spread about her fatal car accident. I considered them possessed, crazy and delusional because they don't even know her personally. How can you cry over the loss of someone you only know from tv? It's absurd, I thought.

Until last Tuesday's news about Steve Irwin.
My heart dropped, I couldn't believe my eyes and ears upon the tragic news. I don't know him yet I feel so sad and cheated because of his death. I keep holding my tears back whenever he appears on the news. Maybe because I've seen numerous shows of his brave and entertaining stunts with wild animals did I have a connection. Or maybe because I bought his dvds since my family and I love watching him. Or maybe, just by watching through the tv one could see through him. His passion about his cause, which is preserving wildlife is so contagious and inspiring that one could not help but admire him. Through his shows one could connect with his honest desire to let everyone know about wildlife. But aside from wildlife I know that he is a genuinely good and honest human being through his lifestyle. He lived his life just the way I would have wanted to live mine. He died doing what he loved to do even it means putting his on the line. He is one of the luckiest people who is so in love with their career.

So now I could not help but write something about this incredible guy whom I only know on tv. Now I know how it feels to be a crazy and delusional fan. He may not be as big as Princess Di, Mother Theresa or the Pope but his tremendous passion and extensive work of saving his beloved creatures is more than enough for me to be in the same rank as them.

Jimmy Choo, Where are You?

2006-08-25T16:12:00.000-07:00

I was watching Oprah and saw today's episode "Real People Behind Big Names". The man behind Elmo and the woman who inspired Barbie were revelead for the first time, along with famous designers like Marc Jacobs and Jimmy Choo. Marc Jacobs is the the very famous designer of pricey clothes and accessories. He was personally interviewed by Oprah about his struggles in life before his fame. Next was supposedly the person behind Jimmy Choo shoes. I've heard so much about this ridiculously priced shoe wear. I am still in awe and disbelief on how anyone would spend 500 bucks on shoes. For me it's just shoes and I really don't see a big difference from the ones sold at a lesser price. Yes it's pretty and sexy but to stick 500 dollars on its price tag is insane.

Ok back to my story. As the person behind the Jimmy Choo shoes was about to be revealed, I instinctively expected Jimmy Choo himself to seat on Oprah's leather couch. It would also be a very big boost on my Asian spirit, to know that a fellow Asian has survived, conquered and has been successful in a ruthless and capitalist society.

But no, it was a white English woman named Tamara Mellon who is the president and founder of Jimmy Choo. She supposedly met the real Jimmy Choo, a cobbler or a shoemaker in Malaysia and was inspired by his creativity and ideas of personalizing shoes to please it's customers.

"At first, Tamara would commission Jimmy to create shoes for special projects. Then she came up with a bigger plan to create a line of shoes made with Jimmy Choo's artistry that would be available to everyone. Jimmy Choo signed off on the idea, freeing Tamara to take his name and run with it. Tamara's father backed his daughter financially, and in 1996, the first London based Jimmy Choo store opened. After 10 years, Jimmy Choo is now worth an estimated $325 million, with 40 locations worldwide, making Tamara Mellon one of the most successful businesswomen in Britain."--Oprah.com

Signed off on the idea? I wonder what Jimmy Choo thinks about this right now. I mean whatever he's worth, he could make soooo much more and more importantly, the recognition he deserves not just some Malaysian cobbler.

Well may be he wasn't interested in business but at least don't give that woman or anyone else permission to use your name and idea. It was his idea all along that inspired the whole line of one-of-a-kind shoes. I couldn't help but smirk upon the words president and founder. It just kills me knowing that another minority was used and bypassed. He should have involved himself into this whole shoe empire that's now worth $325 million instead of signing off the idea. She probably used some big terminologies on this poor cobbler and scared him off the business. Sorry, really getting carried away here. No one but Jimmy Choo knows what really happened, or maybe he is happy with it, I don't know. All I can say is... SAYANG NAMAN.

I want my own MINI

2006-08-21T13:40:00.001-07:00

Sorry for being MIA again. I usually have these dry spells when I just don't have anything interesting to write about or may not be inspired enough to post one up. So I thought, and thought about it. Didn't want to plague anyone with my oh-so-reliable source of emotional and psychological stress (a.k.a inlaws). I wanted it to be about something I'm happy writing, thinking and dreaming of.

Happy thoughts...

Why not write about the MINI.

I have always liked its style, size, unique colors since I saw it here in the US six years ago. Since then, I've kept an eye on it and categorized it as one of my petty, impulsive and fleeting WANTS, never as a NEED. All I wanted was a car. As long as it runs and could take me anywhere, I'm good.

But as time passed my infatuation grew stronger. It was no longer a temporary thing since I still have my eyes set on it regardless of the countless models of cars passing by. Meaning, I still like it.

We're still paying for one of our two cars, so buying a new one right now is not a priority but I have a feeling that it would be my turn to choose our next car (since my husband chose the last one we bought). He was also seriously considering it and would rather have a MINI instead of a toyota Yaris Liftback or Scion XA. I made it clear that all I want is a small car...I mean smaller than your usual compact car. I often joke that it's not a car it's Half a car. But when I learned that the cute little mini is a BMW (See, that's how I knew I really wanted it. It wasn't about the name it's purely about the style. So I wasn't aiming for a B-M-W. I knew maintaining those kind of cars burn holes in your wallet), I knew what it entailed. More cash. So I would have to settle for something more affordable, hence the yaris or XA.

But then a glimmer of hope opened when my husband considered and actually happened to like it as well. So as soon as we get our first priorities done and having our second car paid, I'll have my very own, smallzilla. I'm in no hurry. I'm just itching to get a feel on it. I'm pestering my husband into test driving it one of these days so I'd finally stop imagining how it's like to drive one.

Two years of blogging

2006-08-05T09:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was actually the anniversary of when I started blogging. I just happen to look at my previous posts trying to find out the exact day and was surprised that I have missed it.

Nonetheless, here's to the most wonderful way of venting my thoughts, feelings, opinions and everyday life..

This is the Day

2006-07-28T15:51:00.000-07:00

The sweet smell of success is such a nice experience especially if it's well and hard earned. I've been struggling with something for the past three years which hindered my independence, freedom and ultimately my feelings of self-worth. I've questioned my abilities, pounded my head with thoughts of giving up and pulling myself back again. It only took one person to push me through. My mom was and is my constant companion, through thick and thin she was there. And now I will forever be grateful for everything. I will always remember this day, the day which I tasted the fruits of my labor. The day I have proved to myself that anything is possible through Christ who gives me strength. The day I never thought would come. I promise to remember that I can do ANYTHING as long as I don't give up and give in to the feelings of loss and inadequacy when failure comes. I can reach my goals through perseverance, patience, and most importantly prayers.

Everything has its own time.
God knows when it is time.
Today is my time.

Sweet, sweet smell of success.

And World Peace!

2006-07-24T23:43:00.000-07:00

Host:What is the one most important thing our society needs?

Gracie Hart: That would be... harsher punishment for parole
violators, Stan.

[crowd is silent]

Gracie Hart: And world peace!!!

This dialogue and the rest of the movie Miss Congeniality has turned watching Miss Universe Pageants into a joke, at least for me. I used to be so serious about it way back when I was young but little by little you learn to be sarcastic, suspicious and doubtful about the contestants' sincerity. Oh sure, they're all made up and glued to perfection on camera. What I'd like to see is the off cam bitching and cat fighting. Haha, too much reality tv for me! But I guess that's what people love about reality tv, although most of the time scripted and overrated, it portrays real emotions and dilemmas.

I accidentally caught the last 15 minutes of this year's Miss U Pageant which I was delighted to know was held here in Los Angeles. I didn't have a clue, I just know it was to be held at some point, in a far away exotic place.

The final five was not really that impressive, especially Miss Switzerland. I don't know, they all look alike. I would have wanted Miss Japan to win because aside from being charming and cute, it would have given Asian countries a chance to be recognized as well. Coz it's always the usual Miss Venezuela, Spain, Puerto Rico, I mean, geez give it a rest, we know they're beautiful! Give others a chance! I didn't see Miss Philippines but I read she won Miss Photogenic, not bad. At least may award! She looks cute in this snapshot.

As I was reading through the pageant's official website, I was surprised to see Santino Rice, former contestant of my fave reality show Project Runway, to be one of the judges. That's why people are dying to be exploited in reality shows, the payoff is just priceless. You can't get anymore exposure than that!

Ok, here's Miss U 2006 with her fake tears and phony cries. I bet she'd sell that $250,000 crown if she had the chance. (I am so bad)

MISS PUERTO RICO, ZULEYKA RIVERA CROWNED MISS UNIVERSE® 2006 DURING LIVE NBC TELECAST ON JULY 23RD

Can you believe this? She's only 18!!! When I was 18, I still didn't know what to do with my life, let alone winning Miss U. What an over-achiever!

And the line-up is so Hollywood! Carson from Fab 5 is one of the commentators. The judges had stars from reality shows and the girl from Deal or No Deal, WTH? I just thought it was way too hollywood for me. What happened to distinguished panel of judges?

Pardon the sarcasm and sour graping, I've totally been brainwashed by Miss Congeniality.

Can't stand the BS

2006-07-19T13:33:00.000-07:00

Family gatherings, reunions and parties is part of our culture and lifestyle. It's something that some of us, including me, dread. Some of it I regretted attending, some of it wasn't so bad. Two of our relatives from Texas are staying here until Saturday. It's been awhile since we've seen them and so the chit chats and updates would not cease. I've noticed that it wasn't so much about keeping updated with everybody but it also has been about bragging about who's apo or grandkid is the smartest, most active, spoiled. It's sort of a match up between two families competing about their children and their children's children's status in life. They're not fighting or arguing, they're just talking and talking and still talking, trying to top off each other's stories, that's all. I don't know, I just can't stand it. That's probably why, most of my relatives know me as reserved, quiet and shy. It's because I can't stand the crap, the subtle and hidden bullsh*t that goes on. I completely shut off. For once, I'd like it to be about real heart to heart conversations about life, family or old age, I don't know...just something without having to brag. If they could just see how many times I roll my eyes everytime I hear about another smart apo, they'd think I'm a snob.

One more thing I've noticed whenever there are visitors around some of my family's personality changes. They become this accomodating, sweet, kind, patient person. Not that they're none of those good qualities, but it just becomes way too much it looks like a show. I've stopped a long time ago changing how I act just for the sake of pleasing other people. I hated it whenever you need to do a certain thing just so they wouldn't think or talk bad about you. For me, as long as I'm not doing anything bad or hurting other people, they can talk all they want I don't care. I can't be someone I'm not. I mean, you can just see through me when I start pretending. I get tensed, uncomfortable, sweaty and jumpy. I look like I stole something which is probably the case. Putting on a face that isn't mine.

Que Sera Sera?

2006-07-14T12:30:00.000-07:00

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother what will I be?
Should I be pretty, should I be rich?
Here's what she said to me...
Que sera sera, whatever will be, will be.
The future's not ours to see. Que sera sera.
What will be, will be.

I've been spending most of my time with my mom and grandmother since our summer vacation and things have come up regarding my grandmother's physical and emotional health. Not that she's in serious or terminal threat, she's doing fine, but recently she's been a bit down. Her attitude towards life seems to be negative. She complains about her aging body all the time, but let's face it, our bodies naturally wear out with age. We can't expect it to be as vibrant and energetic as it once were. My mother encourages her to go visit some of her friends but sometimes she hesitates and would still rather stay at home and sleep.

My grandmother, mother and I are not at all different. We all grew up in a stable, Christian home with the support and care of our family. Partying and socializing isn't much of a priority, we'd rather have really close friends and family to be with occassionally. You know, we're not the spontaneous pack-up-your-bags-let's-go-to-africa(or anywhere new and exotic) kind of family. We're pretty much laidback, predictable, quiet and stable.

I wonder, would I be as stubborn and as lifeless as my grandmother in a few year's time? Would I rather be in bed complaining about how stiff my joints are and how bad I was feeling from day to day?

It's easy right now to say that, No I'd still have a positive outlook in life when I grow older. My grandmother wasn't at all like that before. She worked, cooked and did all the ordinary things we do but since her heart surgery she had quite a change in personality. Maybe it's old age, maybe it was from the surgery, maybe it's depression. She complains about her chest but the doctor assured her so many times that she has to get used to it because that's how it is going to feel due to the pacemaker. That was 4 years ago, she still complains about it.

My mom and I figured that she just doesn't have anything to divert her mind with. That's why her focus is on the pain and the negative. Or she may have been living the que sera sera motto by living life as it comes along, passively letting time run its course without a hint much less the knowledge of what the future holds.

We must have a little knowledge about the future, right? I believe in dreams, hopes, plans, goals because without these things we're good as dead. I believe we should never lose the child in us. The wonderment and awe in a child's eyes when it sees something sparkly and shiny. I believe that by chasing rainbows, we become motivated to get up and battle our way through the day.

Living an optimistic life really needs getting used to. I believe it's a lifestyle one has to learn while still young and should be maintained all throughout old age. I refuse to give up on life when that time comes when I'm all sick and wobbly. But I have to start now while I could still realize how much life has to offer and while I could still see the beauty of being alive.

Brokeback Mountain 2

2006-07-12T12:11:00.000-07:00

Found this pic through my cousin. Isn't it hilarious? Graphics is nicely done too huh, must be done by someone who's desperately been wanting a girl on girl action from these fine ladies.

I just bought Brokeback Mountain, but have not seen it as of yet. Still waiting for the right time...and place. I want no distractions and of course my daughter can never see it, obviously. It takes time for us to see movies such as this because it has to be watched on a very specific time and place, preferably when the little one is fast asleep.

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I'm pretty much happy now with my layout. This was more of what I was trying to achieve compared to the one before this. The other one was ok but I didn't know how the heck to put boxes on the sides so I then switched into a layout(from blogger of course, I have no choice) that is close to what I want it to look like. Added that vintage banner I've been obsessing about since last month. Thank God for banner generators! I attempted to make one through photoshop but it just didn't workout, or maybe it would but who knows when I'd finish.

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Love, Love, Love Project Runway. I missed it so much. But guess what Kai, I almost forgot to watch it, ha! thanks to re-runs...I caught the 10pm encore! There seems to be another Santino...

Just a ride

2006-07-09T19:23:00.000-07:00

Jem - Just A Ride

Life, it's ever so strange
It's so full of change
Think that you've worked it out
then BANG
Right out of the blue
Something happens to you
To throw you off course
and then you

Breakdown
Yeah you breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because

It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared
don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget it's just a ride

Truth, we don't wanna hear
It's too much to take
Don't like to feel out of control
So we make our plans
Ten times a day
And when they don't go
our way we

Breakdown
Yeah we breakdown
Well don't you breakdown
Listen to me
Because

It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you round and round
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared
don't hide your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget it's just a ride

Slowly, oh so very slowly
accept that
there's no getting off
So live it, just gotta go with it
coz this ride's, never gonna stop

Breakdown
Don't you breakdown
No need to breakdown
No need at all
Because

It's just a ride, it's just a ride
no need to run, no need to hide
It'll take you all around
Sometimes you're up
sometimes you're down
It's just a ride, it's just a ride
don't be scared now
dry your eyes
It may feel so real inside
but don't forget enjoy the ride

--Love the lyrics, love the song... very well said.
Have a nice week ahead. Don't forget to enjoy the ride!

Yesterday's day out

2006-07-05T13:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was quite an experience. It was the same routine we had everytime we go to Universal Studios, only this time it was jam-packed with matching scorching heat. Nice huh...but nonetheless we had fun, well mostly our daughter and that's what matters most. Since it was too hot to roam around, too crowded to get through lines and lines of people waiting to get in the rides, we just sat and watched our daughter have fun in this thing called Splash Zone. It was the perfect way to cool down. She didn't hesitate to get soaking wet until she shivered from the cold water that was constantly pouring down on the kids. It was kind of a water park, minus the swimming pool. Basically it was a playground with squirting,even buckets of it and sprays of water mists everywhere. So there. She had one hell of a good time. I could still hear her screams of joy.

Nickelodeon's Splash Zone

There she is, soaking wet in orange stripes.
I was too late to put her bathing suit on.

One of the actor dogs/animals they have on the set.

After she had enough of it, we went to watch Shrek 4D. It was in a theater, just like the movies, only this time the seats move and squirt water and blow air on your ear and feet. Of all the rides that was the only one we got into. Since neither of us wanted to go alone because one had to watch the little girl while the other takes on the ride, we just made it her day, like always.

Our treat would be the 20-dollar-all you can eat pass. It was funny because even if we weren't hungry we still got food to compensate for the money we've spent...hehe the drinks went along with it so it's free too. It seemed as if we went to a buffet restaurant instead of a theme park. Well that was part of the deal, so who am I to object?

About 6pm we went out of the park and decided to stroll down Citywalk. I discovered something I've always wanted to do since I came here. There's something romantic, fun, adventurous and liberating about watching a movie in an open space, on a big screen outdoors. I've seen them do that in the movies and since then I haven't stopped obsessing. So Universal Citywalk has this summer party to encourage the flow of people into their lare.

They have free concerts, movies, parties etc. I was very thrilled to learn about it particularly the movies. I would definitely have to do that sometime before summer ends.

Last year...

This year...I was taking cover from the heat.

4th of July weekend

2006-06-30T12:34:00.000-07:00

I have decided to make the rest of my days, fearless. Often times I forget to live my life to the fullest. Living it without hesitations, limitations, boundaries, fear and doubt. I have read from a blog...."what would I do if I weren't afraid?" That really made me thinking. If we all just live our lives like there's no tomorrow, we, I could have made something more out of my life. I could have conquered all of my fears, faced all uncertainties and ultimately know my life's purpose. That would have been the most ideal way to live. To know what and why you're here for.

On a lighter note..it's 4th of July weekend. Last year we went to my cousins' house to watch some fireworks, which was great. This year we might go to Universal Studios with my family and cousins again. It would be fun if the park could throw in some fireworks display too, to make it more memorable. I've always wanted to spend a holiday, any kind of holiday, preferrably New Year's or Christmas on a theme park. Since tomorrow is a holiday and since we've got annual passes to the closest park from our home, I hope it'll be a good one for us without breaking the bank.

Happy 4th of July everyone. Enjoy everything while it lasts!

There's sunshine after the rain

2006-06-22T16:24:00.000-07:00

(The more we get together....part 2. Trust me, there'll be a lot more sequels to this post. This is actually long overdue, so bare with me.)

I believe that each of us has a cross or burden to carry. Each has their own set of problems to tackle and endure. When I hear personal stories from friends, relatives etc. , they always have something, something that makes their life like the rest of us, IMPERFECT. As the saying goes, "you can't get everything" and "no one and no life is perfect". Some have problems with their spouses, some with their kids, and some with their extended family.

I am just like everyone else. I too have realized that my cross is here, upon me, staring at me in the face, mocking me, testing me, waiting for me to do something. I have known that it was my cross to carry since the time I said I DO. This post is considered an extension from the post I made a few days back, so yes, I'm still talking about the same person/s.

Sigh...It's tough living like this. No amount of money is worth living a stressful life. Now I know why people living in high stress environment get their bodies worn out faster and are at high risk of getting sick compared to those living a simple yet peaceful life. Just this week I've already had two terrible headaches which I try not to relieve by medication. This is unusual for me because I rarely have these kinds of stuff, heck I'm too young to be experiencing these kinds of stuff. But I guess I still have to deal with it at some point in my life so I might as well buckle up, or rather put on my shield and armor and suck it up.

I don't think I can wait for that time when we could buy our own house. I'm currently looking for an apartment because I just know that I have to do something now before it's too late.

But as the saying also goes there's sunshine after the rain. This has actually been our motto even before we got married. My husband has it on his former cellphone as a reminder of the hardships we had to go through. And now that problem was resolved, another one is inching its way up. I try to just look at it as something that will make me stronger and tougher as a mother, wife and as a human being.

Happy Father's Day

2006-06-19T12:10:00.000-07:00

He didn't teach me how to live life.
He lived, and let me watch him do it..
This is so true with my dad. He is the quiet type but his silence speaks more loudly than what words can express. He is OC- obsessive compulsive, but not the neurotic and anal type though. He likes everything organized, scheduled, planned and in order. The house is most of the time if not always, spotless. He not only does the manly jobs around the house, but the womanly duties as well, like cooking and cleaning. My mom doesn't sit and orders him around, they do it equally without pinpointing that this chore is for girls or this is a man's job. They're totally the perfect example of equality between genders. And I thank my dad above all because he is what Father's Day is all about.

The more we get together.... the crazier I'll be

2006-06-15T16:13:00.000-07:00

The more we get together, together, together.
The more we get together the happier we'll be.

I heard my daughter sing this song one day and I was again happy to hear her learn another song from school. It was cute, coming from a 4 year old, so I began singing along because it sure cheered me up. But then upon the second round of singing and at the same time pondering upon the meaning of the song, I said, "Nope, not necessarily true".

I'm not talking about my own family. My husband and daughter is all I have in this world. I'm talking about being too much together with certain people withinin our family meddling with our lives (hint: it's not my parents). Being together, as in from sunrise til sunset they are there questioning you, criticizing, scrutinizing every single aspect of your life. It ain't a pretty picture. I once heard, A happy wife is a happy life. Guess what kind of wife I am right now.

My only glimmer of light is the thought that someday we'll be buying a house far, far, far, far, far, far away from here. By then I'll be the happiest and content wife in the whole world.

On Rumors, Penguins and a Geisha

2006-06-10T11:24:00.000-07:00

Unfortunately I do not own any of these dvds as of yet. We chose to rent because it sucks to wait for it to be on sale if you already know it is worth watching plus intriguing. With Jennifer Aniston's movie, I stumbled upon it by chance when the video guy saved it for me so sure that I would like it. Well, he knows what women wants, in movies that is.

March of the Penguins
Gosh, I don't know how to express my utter amazement and awe on these seemingly odd creatures. Coz as we all know, animals, don't really have a very hard time reproducing. They find a random mate then after several months an offspring is created. It's not very complicated, it's strictly business to these guys, you can't blame them, it's instincts. Penguins as I have just learned, go through so much hardships and trials all for the sake of reproduction. It's intriguing because during that one year process of finding a mate, reproducing, and caring for their young, they resemble us human beings in the most astonishing way. You really have to see the movie to believe it. I never knew anything like that existed until this. It's just amazing.

Memoirs of a Geisha
I didn't get the chance to read the book but I hope I get to do it someday. Wow! I'm so glad I wasn't born in Japan during those times. It sucks to be a GEISHA! It sucks not to have a choice to run your OWN life. It sucks to be under the control and mercy of MEN! It sucks to be treated like a possession and seen only as an entertainer or an artist so as to earn a MAN's affection or approval. Geez...talk about gender discrimination. But one thing that didn't suck, is this movie. After 2 hours or so of heart-wrenching depiction of what women went through during this time period and may be even today is sensational.

Rumor Has It
I never really thought much about this movie since it didn't create buzz on its opening day inspite of the big stars. Once again, the unexpected delight and amusement out of a movie that you didn't think would make an impact was nice. Although I didn't seem to see any chemistry between Aniston and Ruffalo, I don't know may be it was meant to be that way since she was supposedly having cold feet on their engagement. There was also too many reference about Pasadena, Sarah, Jennifer Aniston's character's hometown. The shots were very familiar to me. It is not very far from where I'm at, in fact, it's one of the places we see frequently and go to. One thing though, I wish I had a grandma like Shirley Mclaine's character. She's cool, free-spirited, crazy and gorgeous. Yup, she still has it.

Ok. make it a point to watch these or at least the first two because it's well worth it. Have a great weekend!

mornings at IKEA

2006-06-05T18:31:00.000-07:00

For almost three consecutive mornings my husband and I have been eating breakfast at IKEA. It's a Swedish furniture store where you can buy all things for the home at a very affordable price. The catch is though, you gotta install it yourself. Yup, that's the catch. But you really wouldn't mind doing it as soon as you see the prices and compare it with others. Quality wise, uhmmm not really good either. Let's just say it's good for apartment owners because it's affordable and replaceable. Then as you move in to your dream house, splurge on the really good stuff, in terms of quality. But I must say their designs are nice, modern, practical, space savers and convenient.

They also sell swedish food like cookies, meatballs, jellies etc. etc.

Ok, we weren't there for furniture but for food. My mom told me they sell 99-cent breakfasts and the rest of the menu aren't bad either. We checked it out and for sure we weren't disappointed. We usually eat their fat-free yogurts, hotdogs, y'know..snacks but haven't really tried lunch menus.

Their breakfast had eggs, bacon, and a side of potatoes, not bad for 99 cents right? My husband had the same thing and added an egg burrito. Then I also tried the pancakes. All in all including coffee(which was refillable) and juice(also refillable) it was about 5 bucks...not bad at all. My husband was like.."this is the cheapest breakfast we have ever had".

Needless to say, we were stuffed. I couldn't even finish mine so we had it to-go.
It was a pleasant way to spend mornings with your significant other, relaxing, talking and getting stress-filled days out of your system.

Wishful thinking

2006-05-27T18:50:00.000-07:00

It's not quite summer yet but it sure feels like it already. The weather has been hitting the 80's lately so everyone in my family is on the nosebleed and itching alert especially my daughter. If they're bodies can barely take the heat over hear, how much more in the Philippines? Gosh. I can't even begin to imagine the agony they're going to experience the minute they set foot on Philippine soil breathing, and sweating in it too. We'll just have to see. I'm more concerned about my daughter. I hope she won't get sick too often due to the weather change. Nevermind the itch or the nosebleed, I just don't want her to get a fever or a stomach flu or something really serious. That's why I couldn't afford to take her when she was little. Now that she's a big girl, I think she her body can handle it pretty well.

We're not really planning to go to the Philippines anytime soon. Just wishful thinking. There's so much to look forward to on that day when I finally come back home with my family. So much things I'd like them to see, to do and maybe to eat too. It's nice to share something a part of your life they have not seen yet. My friends, my schools, the church, the place where I was born and where I grew up. Just our house alone is filled with childhood memories.

And after all the reflecting, I would really want to go to the beaches, and hopefully a province. When I was growing up, my parents weren't the adventurous type so we rarely go on outings. It was basically Tagaytay, Baguio, La Union (to visit my grandma's relatives), Subic. I would want to go far out like in Bohol, Cebu, Palawan(although I think I dare not go there for fear of Muslims? but it's such a nice place!), where else, ooohh Vigan! I saw these beautiful pictures of historic streets and houses in Vigan. No idea how to get there but I'll find a way.
I probably won't be able to go to all of these but I'd be very happy to experience at least one. Well boracay is a sure thing, the rest is still to be arranged.
Ahhh! all the wishful thinking is killing me!

There are beaches here but it's nothing compared to our beaches. What we have back home is paradise! I have yet to see paradise-like resorts over here. They may have it, but it's very pricey and you still have to travel a whole lot to get there.

So for the meantime, we'll get settled for something less paradise-like. My daughter has no problem with that at all. All she needs is a water-filled pool and a life vest and she's good to go. It's a paradise all in itself.

Happy Weekend everyone!

Final Bow

2006-05-21T16:27:00.001-07:00

And then there was one...

I grew to love some of the most widely popular comedy sitcoms on tv. All but one have now ended after running for 8-10 years. Friends, Everybody loves Raymond...and now Will & Grace have all come to an end. Although I have not been as commited to watching every single episode as much as Friends...W&G is one show I will definitely not forget because of its unpretentious, most hilarious gay jokes you will ever hear. Watching their finale was bittersweet. It ended just the way it should have ended.

These kind of shows relaxes me after a tiring day. It's nice to plop on a comfy chair or bed eating junk food until reality kicks in that I've got a ton of work to do. I don't get tired of its endless re-runs.

And now I'm down to my last long running show...Gilmore Girls which I hear is going to its halt pretty soon.

Finally....a photo update!

2006-05-13T19:54:00.000-07:00

First of all Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers!

Just went to a Flower Field in Carlsbad and was absolutely mesmerized by its beauty. I accidentally found this place in the net and made it a point to visit it sometime, I was not disappointed at all. Who wouldn't be? Acres and acres of brightly colored flowers of different kinds lined the field. My daughter loved it at first but then realized that the field smelled what it seemed like fertilizer or simply the smell of soil. It wasn't manure or anything but she gagged several times. She got over it eventually.

I didn't have anything new to post so I decided to redo my old post. Well I got tons of pictures so I might as well...

Welcome to the Flower Field

I love candid shots...my daughter always gets it just the way I want it.

She doesn't like the smell...hmpf!

Sunshine, blue sky, beautiful flowers and a stubborn but cute little girl.

So hard to get the right angle...

I'm tired...let's go home.

Updates

2006-05-11T10:15:00.000-07:00

I have been wanting to post something really nice but I want it to go with a couple of scenic photos. Well I still don't have them but I'm hoping to go out to the beach or a nature hike soon.

Semester's almost over. We said our goodbyes in the nursing home yesterday and we're ready for the next semester which will start on September. Wow. Time really flew! I can't believe that I once was an unexperienced student nursing a few months back. I certainly have learned a whole lot from hands-on experiences. It was well worth it. The first half of the battle is over, I'm ready for the second half.

The biggest lesson I've learned is simply to SPEAK UP. Communication is very important especially upon entering uncharted territory. When I first started clinicals, I was very hesistant in expressing my concerns to the staff because I felt intimidated. Now I am starting to assert myself more, in an appropriate and professional way of course.

Taming the Fashion Beast Within

2006-04-22T12:44:00.000-07:00

Our week and a half long vacation was extended to another week when our instructor called in sick. She had to cancel 3 days of our class including clinicals which was of course in favor to all but her. When someone told us about the news, it was hard not to crack a smile brought about by unexpressed joy and freedom.

Well we really didn't go anywhere different from where we are now. No roadtrips or adventurous outings, just family bonding not far away from home. It was nice and inexpensive. The past year has been a lot of gastos from basic home necessities to personal pleasures that I felt the need to slow down unimportant spendings. I don't want to get things out of control and suffer the consequences in the future. I'm so proud to have conquered my shopping urges for years now. When I was single, I used to just splurge all out on clothes and accessories. But having a family of my own, made me prioritize.

I still and would always love fashion with all the matching accessories and kikay stuffs that go along with it but I don't succumb to buying everytime we go in the mall. Most of them aren't being used as much as I'd like it to be anyway. So why am I spending tons of money to support this habit? It just clicked inside my head. Not sure why though...whether it was brought about by having my own family or just something that I developed as I matured. Either or, it was a good kind of change.

I still manage to buy a little here and there but not as frequent and careless as before. I am proud to say that I have tamed the fashion beast in me.

It's simple.

If we can just realize how quickly fashion starts and ends, without giving us the chance to make the most out of well spent clothes.

Realize that it is a business. People are getting paid millions of money to start a trend. Models, actors, the media all play a role in it. The gullible, sometimes wannabee's who splurge on every single new trend out in the marke are the ones who puts the food on their table. Well more than food. Mansions, ridiculous extravagant shopping sprees, cars.....the whole enchilada.

Go for versatile pieces. The ones that are trendy yet affordable but would more likely still look good even after the trend ends. Clothes that are unique may look cute for only a period of time but may soon look weird when fashion changes it mind yet again.

Stick to neutral colors. Bright, shocking colors are nice and bubbly but aren't always in. They come and go as they please. I go for earthy colors. Browns, beige, and grey are my faves. I believe that they can never go wrong or baduy because of their neutral vibe. But of course this all depends on one's own fashion sense. Some people realy like bright and friendly colors. All I'm saying is that it's hard to pair them with the rest of your wardrobe maybe because it stands out too much.

Same goes with shoes. The basic black and brown are always a must. The style and shape of the shoes are hard to predict whether they'd be versatile enough. I tend to buy ones that look sexy yet comfortable. Looking hot and sexy on 4 inch stylettos are so not worth the pain I feel when I start strolling down the mall running after my 4 year old or just aimlessly wandering with my family. Some shoes are just not made for walking. I prefer comfy yet chic.

Other people's fashion sense and nonsense is really not my business. I'm simply sharing the ones that have set me free from the tight grip of fashion trends. It just pains me to see upscale, socialites feasting on first class amenities on normal, hardworking citizens'expense.

I feel like I'm about to break into a song or a speech. Nevertheless, it was good to belt this out in the open because I know it's what most women can relate to.

These are pictures from the park not too long ago. We went out to feed the ducks and birds which became sort of a ritual.

Enjoy life's simple pleasures

*Just one favor...can you guys give me feedback on whether the pictures above can be conveniently enlarged whenever clicked on. Thanks!

Freaky Wednesday

2006-04-13T14:38:00.000-07:00

Yesterday started off like any other day. My daughter and I went to laze around my mother's house which we usually do on our time off. My mom went to work at 3pm. We took a nap around that time too and were awakened by a call around 4pm. No one seemed to be on the other line so I hung up not suspecting anything out of it.

But then the phone rang. It rang and rang with mere silence on the other end. Whoever it was, or whatever it was it did the same thing, calling and not answering for 6 or 7 times. I told my grandma about it and we both got concerned. It was either a long distance call which coud not seem to connect or simply a prank call.

My dad who usually comes around 6pm wasn't home yet. Looking at the time it was half past 8pm. I frantically looked for my dad's cell number. Although I was crying inside I remained calm, reassuring myself that he's just stuck in traffic. My lola made it even worse when she reminded me of the calls we were getting earlier. We knew that it could potentially be a sign of something bad about to happen.

I didn't stop searching for the number until I got through my dad's cell and was so relieved to hear his voice. The traffic was the reason for his delay and was on his way home. Whew! That was a relief. My heart was pounding so hard the whole time because the phone calls were so weird. It was something out of a horror film.

Everything was calm and was back to normal when we headed home. As soon as we got home we prepared ourselves for bed when the phone rang...AGAIN!. I hesitantly picked it up hoping someone is on the other line.

Guess what, no one answered again. I looked at my husband and stared at him in disbelief. He was mocking me and was joking around, I told him I am not amused about the whole thing.

I dialed *69 to know who that caller was. It was busy. We waited for a couple of minutes because I really had to know. I let my husband call this time because at this point I am terrified. He dialed and promptly told me that it was ringing. Someone picked it up, then he said no one answered.

We haven't spoken about that today. Maybe he got spooked out as well but it wasn't the same if you were the one who answered those 6 or 7 calls. I was the one who listened to the eery silence on the other line.

I still have not recovered from the calls. Typing this post still gives me goosebumps. Last night I slept with one eye shut praying not to receive any bad news from someone close to us.

So far no calls. No bad news. Thank God.

As crazy and as strange as it may sound, whether it was pure coincidence or not, it happened and it is not at all funny. I've been constantly looking behind my shoulder since yesterday. I'm trying so hard to shake it off but whenever the phone rings I jump.

Okay. I've got to get a hold of myself.
It's just coincidence. It's just coincicence.
I hope.

Time Off

2006-04-09T19:00:00.000-07:00

I'm finally on my much needed spring break so is the whole family, daughter and husband. We've been planning to do anything adventurous and fun. My husband wants to go long driving to Las Vegas, I on the other hand would want to go to San Diego. I don't want someting too far because I refuse to spend. There's a lot of pros and cons about the places we are planning to go to. I just hope we could take advantage of our break and use our time to get out.

1. Las Vegas
Fun, good for sight seeing and walking around.
Not advisable for kids.
Cheap outlets stores that I've been dying to go since last year.
Four hour driving.
Expenses: hotel, gas, lunch, dinner, breakfast, snacks

2. San Diego Zoo
Not only for animal sight-seeing but good for nature walk/hike.
Nice scenery.
My daughter's first time.
2 hour driving.
Expenses: entrance ticket, lunch, a few snacks

3. Universal City
Fun but we've been there for like so many times already.
We already know what to expect.
Close to home. 15 minutes away.
Expenses: food

One reason why I sort of feel unsure about going out is that I don't have my camera right now. My father in law borrowed it. He's in the Philippines coming home on Thursday. Making adventurous trips isn't the same without a good camera.

I'm Exhausted...

2006-03-30T14:26:00.000-08:00

A little over 5 am I started to wake, even before the alarm goes off, psyching myself up for another clinical day. I don't dread it. I can just feel the hectic day waiting to begin. I know the moment I get up the comfy, warm bed the battle is on.

I force myself in the cold bathroom.

Showering was an option before but these days were an exception. I needed it to wake up and to rid myself from the cold. Once I'm in, I'm good to go. The hot steam has such a therapeutic effect it literally wakes every sleeping cell of my body (including my brain cells).

I then prepare a quick, healthy breakfast. Oatmeal and eggs or sausage is what I usually consume to get me through until lunch. I don't usually eat breakfast but since nursing school, I opted on a full, satisfied stomach. I hate it whenever my stomach growls mercilessly on lecture days.

Today a classmate and I dared to do a bed bath without nursing assistance. We felt confident and prepared since we've been observing and helping out for more than 3 weeks now. Everything was a breeze except for ambulating. Considering the size of our patients, it was hard not to break a sweat. We struggled on keeping her on her chair. Both our patients had pschosis, so most of the time they're uncooperative especially during baths. But we did what we could until our shift ended.

It's midterm next week. I've been reading a lot but I still could not take my mind of the coming spreak break. It would be nice to have some time off. To relax a bit.

A Call from the Philippines

I got a call today from a close friend from the Philippines. It's nice to hear a familiar voice from time to time. She was asking when I could go back for a visit because it's been ages since I did.

For Pete's sake, I was still single!

She pointed out that I've been here for so long already I might have forgotten everything altogether. I felt guilty because it was true. Certain faces, memories have started to blur in my mind's eye. The daily routine of life, family and school have kept me from noticing how time flew. In a blink of an eye I've spent 6 years here, in l.a.

But then again I should not feel guilty, I was just fulfilling my job as a parent, wife and daughter.

Of course I want to go back home for a vacation but we're in a process of building our lives and working for our future. I promised myself the moment I get a good nursing job we'll all go. I'd love for my daughter to see the philipppines and for my husband to go back after 18 years.

For the meantime...

There's a new cutie pie in town. I used to loathe dogs especially the ones that growls, jumps and barks at you the moment they sense you're someone new(I guess most dogs are like that). My daughter and husband would really love it if I'd consider having a dog/s someday. But considering my traumatic and hateful experiences with canines they've given up trying to change my mind. Until we met Benjie, my cousin's dog. From the moment I saw him I didn't hear a single growl nor a bark. He just stared quietly begging for someone to stroke his light brown fur.

My two cutie pies

2006-03-22T20:26:00.000-08:00

Unwritten
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your INHIBITIONS
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

-Natasha Bettingfield

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This song is so much of an inspiration to me. It hit me so hard and penetrated so deep I am compelled to share it. The message is strong and to the point. It makes you want to plunge into the things you've been hesistating to do. It's true. Life is too short to be lived with inhibitions, fear, uncertainty, doubt, regrets. We should all live as if it were our last.

Deprived of a Good Movie

2006-03-16T08:15:00.000-08:00

I have been on a losing streak, in regards to dvds I have recently seen. I don't really expect anything much out of Diane Lane, Debra Messing, even Renee Zelwegger. But Julia Roberts!!! I have loved most if not all of her movies and Closer is just disappointing. Not only was Roberts in it, but Natalie Portman and Jude Law as well. Their acting is great, especially Portman but the story was.... blah. I felt the writer was trying too hard to make it seem as if it were someone's worth their while. It didn't fool me. I knew it would be hard to top Fever Pitch! Movies like that don't come as often anymore...you know, movies that strike a nerve.

My rating: Blah
If you're trying to kill time, or if you're really, really bored, then go ahead and watch. But I guarantee you won't feel any different from the moment you pressed play. It's just another crappy movie.

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This is our second week in the nursing home. I finally have gotten my feet and hands wet. There was a lot more to do this week. A lot more patient contact if you will. I felt so exhausted after, but it was a good kind of exhaustion. It was a sense of accomplishment of some sort. It was good. But I'm definitely going to pursue Pediatrics. People here are humongous, in comparison to us filipinos. As we all know we're petite and short compared to Americans but I always say that Bigger doesn't always mean Better, if you know what I mean. It's just a matter of size, what's important is what's in your heart and mind. I brought this up because I have been getting all these feedback from teachers, classmates and others. They're good feedbacks but it was mostly about my height. About how cute, small and petite I am. One stranger came up to me and said "You're the cutest little nurse I've ever seen!". She said that as if I was a child, a preschooler who's playing dress up with mommy's working clothes. They actually think I'm 16 years old. Well I'm not and I'm there to prove to myself and to them that size doesn't matter*.

*Well sometimes it does especially when physical strength is concerned. But hey we are not always in a wrestling match...

Here's some visuals.The picture from the beach is an old one. I just wanted to post something outdoorsy coz I've been itching to do some nature- tripping or hiking. Or the beach perhaps....

Weekly Update

2006-03-10T12:38:00.000-08:00

It has been a long Tuesday and Thursday for me. It was in those days I had to finally get into an actual nursing care setting as a part of our clinical hours. I had little sleep the night before because I didn't know what to expect. I had very mixed feelings about it. There was a rush of adrenaline pumping through my veins, just itching to get into action. At the same time, I felt very awkward and unsure of myself of what I, as a student, am allowed to do. I also felt very excited and happy about having to experience something for the very first time. Just witnessing the hustle and bustle of nurses, nursing assitants, physical therapists along with all the other staff in and out patient's room is amazing.

All I could say is that...it isn't easy. Nursing is not an easy job considering the huge responsibility a nurse has to her patients. Someone's life is on the line here. His/her life depends on the quality of care a nurse provides. As a student, all I know is what the book says. But theory without the actual performance is nothing. I just hope and pray that I could get through the initial stages of awkwardness, insecurity and unfamiliarity. After that, I can get the ball rolling and just do what I have been preparing to do.

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On a much lighter side, we just went to a fun party at my daughter's school. I'm glad that this Hello program from Blogger is working. It's much easier to upload photos because it can resize it for me. So here are some of the pictures.

Cravings

2006-03-02T09:46:00.000-08:00

This is how my cravings look like this month. Its funny how it evolves from one food to another

hershey's chocolate + kettle style chips jalapeno flavor(super hot!) + sushi= that time of the month

Four for Four

2006-02-27T18:51:00.000-08:00

I just had the urge to answer this meme from carnaval. It has been awhile since I did these things. I find it therapeutic.

4 jobs I had in my life

1.waitress/cashier
2.my aunt's assistant to do office work
3.--
4.--

4 movies I could watch over and over again

1.fever pitch
2.My bestfriend's wedding
3.Just Married
4.Titanic

4 places I've lived

1.Las Pinas
2.Valenzuela
3.Los Angeles
4.---

4 TV Shows/Channels I love to watch

1.Gilmore Girls
2.Friends
3.Everybody loves Raymond
4.Reality shows

4 places I've been on vacation

1.Las Vegas
2.San Francisco
3.San Diego
4.Baguio,m,

4 of my favorite foods

1.thai food(phad thai, thai tea etc.)
2.italian food(lasagna, chicken alfredo)
3.mexican food(soft tacos, buritos)
4.sandwiches (subway!)
5.pastries(chocolate-fudge cake, cakes at red ribbon)

4 places I'd rather be by now
(with my family of course)

1.atop the Eiffel Tower
2.Atlantis...in the Bahamas
3.snorkling in the beaches of Hawaii
4.riding a gondola in Venice
5.fishing in Alaska
6.tossing a penny at the Trevi Fountain in Rome
7.basking in Greece
8.safaring in Africa
9.trekking the Great Wall of China
10.shopping in Italy

I can go on and on....

Out of my Comfort Zone

2006-02-23T17:08:00.001-08:00

I am on my 3rd week of nursing school, so far so good. I am truly amazed on how time just briefly passes by. In a blink of an eye, Februrary is almost over. That's what I like with being occupied over something whether it be school or work. In my case, family and school keeps me on my toes.

Ok. School's good. I've been reading like there's no tomorrow just to keep up with the reading assignments. Pretty much everyone in our class complains about the enormous load of work. I, on the other hand, pretend to feel the same way but in reality I know that the load of work are the very foundations on which our career will be based upon. How are you expected to become a professional and effective nurse if your classes weren't taken seriously? But I admit that during my college days in the Philippines, I didn't really care. I just wanted to pass, then graduate...that's it. But now I get it. Learning is not a punishment anymore. It's a privilege and a great advantage.

Enough of the self-reflection. Our class is a lively one. I usually go with the filipino group and fail to mingle with the rest of the class. Right now there's only one pinoy in our class so I had to do some major mingling coz I didn't want to be the loner. I like it when I have to step out of my comfort zone and force myself to speak more. As of our third week, I seem to be getting along with everybody. And everyone as well seems to be comfortable with chatting with pretty much anyone. We're finally a group.

Our instructor is cool. She's in her late 60's to early 70's. I admire her sharp memory and dedication to teaching. A bit disorganized and forgetful at times but all in all she's a great teacher. For some reason though, she tends to be so fond of me. I totally have no clue why. I rarely speak during class discussion. She praised three of the questions I answered, which I HAD to answer because it was directly addressed to me. I'm just not used to being favored by a teacher. Back in the Philippines, I do not recall anyone being that nice to me, mainly because I never participate in class discussions. I'm a good student but don't expect me to willingly and actively participate. Yesterday, we were asked to show her our progress report regarding our immunizations, malpractice insurance, paperworks etc.. Everyone had a minor comment but when it came to me, she's like "Now this is how it should be is done". She called the attention of the whole class to show how I did the report although I knew that I too had the same minor things to tweak. I felt slightly embarassed because I always feel uncomfortable with so much attention even if were a positive one.

I'm such a pessimist. I should be glad that instead of loathing me, she happens to actually like me. It's not really a matter of liking or disliking, I think. But I am just so good at being invisible. I'm fine if they don't remember my name as long as I get an A. Because I think the grades count more and are visible in the transcripts. But you know, it's all about stepping out of my comfort zone. I'm slowly changing that habit to be more well-rounded. Baby steps....

First day

2006-02-07T21:18:00.000-08:00

I started the first day of nursing school last Monday. It was surreal but nice. A ton of work to do and so I'm hoping to get all the time I could get to study and FOCUS. The books are ridiculously expensive along with all the things that go with it. I can't believe I'm finally in the program. This is it. I am now slowly getting sucked into geekland. I can see it coming...the reading assignments, test questions...everything's laid out on our syllabus. But I love it though, I love studying more than anything else, so, as hard and challenging as it is going to be, I'll try my best to roll with the punches. I'll get a hold of a picture of my books. It's ginormous...I weighs more than I do. Tata for now!

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By the way, anybody keeping up with the show Gilmore Girls? Coz i absolutely love it, especially this season.

On movies and cravings

2006-01-28T17:42:00.000-08:00

"All those things you feel for that team, I feel them too.....
for you."

Having less expectations over a movie has once again proved to be more enjoyable and extremely satisfying in the end. I never thought that Jimmy Fallon could pull it off until this. I've seen him from Saturday Night Live, but haven't seen him on a full length movie. I was so used to watching him doing spoofs of someone popular and controversial. He was so funny imitating Enrique Iglesias, when he still has the mole. Anyway, again I was surprised on how this movie entertained me in the most unexpected way because of its honest portrayal of the reality of relatioship. I never wanted it sugar coated and overrated. It was simple yet witty and romantic. The humor was funny and subtle. Jimmy was so adorable and so is Drew Barrymore. It's a story of two people in their 30's trying to make their relationship work out inspite of their different careers and personality quirks. One is corporate and highly paid, and the other is low profile but well respected. Here's the catch. Ben(Jimmy Fallon) seems to be the most pefect guy for Lindsey (Drew Barrymore) but he is the biggest Redsox Fan. His passion for the game is what Lindsey has to deal with. I highly, highly recommend this movie.

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It's that time of the month again where in all hell breaks lose. Ok, well it's not hell all of the time, just some of it. Sometimes I think it's all in the mind. Women can get manipulative and blame it all in that one particular time of the month. But I can attest to the craziness of it all. One thing that I somewhat love and hate are the cravings. I don't think it's psychological as much as it is hormonal. I really believe and I know facts can prove that a women's monthly cycle can do all sorts of things. I personally am amazed on the variety of cravings I get. I thought that pregnant women could only experience crazy cravings but a woman who is on the verge of getting her monthly period is just as the same, only a bit saner. Today my cravings are Lay's salt & vinegar potato chips and chocolate chip cookies. I usually get a sour and sweet combo. I just love the taste of two extremes. It drives me nuts coz I couldn't seem to find this specific kind of potato chips. I think I should blog about my cravings every month just to see how crazy these cravings can get.

I'm munching on a an old favorite that goes way back to my childhood, it's Nabisco's chocolate covered marshmallow biscuits. I've been wanting to eat it since I've seen it in the asian store but I only get to buy it today. I'm down to 2 marshmallows..hehe

The Jerk in Disneyland

2006-01-23T19:50:00.000-08:00

It was the first Saturday of January when we decided to go to Disneyland. We figured it would be our last trip since Danielle and I would soon be going back to school. It started out hassle-free and happy, although crowded as usual. We went to all of my daughter's favorite rides and patiently waited for the parade of disney characters.

Looking at the schedule, I instintively noted the time of when the fireworks display would be held. It would be at 9:30 pm. We've seen the fireworks so many times but not from a very good view. It would have been best viewed in front of the Disney castle, the spot we always fail to get since we've noticed that people start saving seats 2 hours prior to the show. And so I duly noted that at about 8pm I would find a perfect and comfortable spot for us to nest. I was surpise to find that the benches were all taken and that people were already on the ground. So there we were getting ourselves comfy on our little piece of space and loving our view so far. Just to get a mental image of our seating arrangement, we were seated in front of a little garden which was guarded by a little metal fence, a lampost which was also near the fence served as a wall for us to lean on.

Half an hour to the main event, this white guy in his mid-20's sits on that metal fence in front of us blocking our whole entire view! My husband and I instantly looked at each other and started to talk about what the hell that guy is doing there in tagalog. The guy was just sitting there as if nothing happened and that it was perfectly normal for him to sit on a freaking fence. I couldn't hold my tongue any longer and said "Excuse me...that's our space." And you know what the jerk replied? He said "You own this lampost?" He said it in a very calm but mildly sarcastic tone. Then I was like "No...but this is our space". It was a very firm and louder than usual tone. I could now see the couple next to us and the family on our left looking because of the fuss. The jerk proceeded and said "I'm just gonna sit down and rest". And I said OK and turned my back at him. As I did, I felt my body literally shaking from anger because I could not believe how rude someone could be in the happiest place on earth. No one is stupid enough to think that the little space in front of us could still be occupied by a medium built adult. In short pinilit niya ang sarili niya in a very small spot and worst of all blocked my family's view of the whole thing. 10 minutes to go before the show, hindi parin umaalis ang bastos. My daughter was then asking questions about why that man is sitting in front of us and that why mommy was mad. My husband started a conversation with her and told her that the guy was only there to rest and that right before the show starts he would go away. In other words nagparinig na siya. He pretended to talk to our daughter but at the same time letting the guy know that we was expected to get the hell away from our view because we have been saving our spot for hours.

That whole time he was sitting there, someone whom he claimed as his dad kept coming back and forth. They exchange petty chats which they intended for us to hear about how they could get a good seat. He even told him that the fireworks was canceled. They were still chatting when I heard, "Someone owns this post".My ears perked up when I heard this and so I tried to look at him straight in the eye but apparently he was a coward. I haven't felt so brave and so bitchy in all my life. He could not even look at me. I didn't want to reply on what he just said because the whole thing would have been prolonged. And it was clear that he was a big jerk plus he would also be blocking several people seated behind us. You know what I did, I put my daughter on my lap and prepared to watch the show since it was less than 5 minutes away. As we did, all we could see was his hairy legs because as I have said he was blocking our view. Yung legs niya naging view namin since we were seated on the ground and he was on the fence. We just stared at him until he left. He did leave right after the announcer introduced the start of "Remember...Dreams Come True" Fireworks Spectacular. And I just said "Thank You"sarcastically.

These are one of the very, very and I stress very few times when I confront someone. I could hardly believe myself, my husband either could not believe how I stood up for myself. I hate confrontations, I'm the one who just says hayaan mo na yan he'll get it one day...I don't know what came over me, probably the way he ignited me by asking if I owned the lampost. Bastos talga and dating kasi. But I totally didn't like that feeling at all. It was so overwhelming and it was something I wouldn't want to feel nor experience ever. I also realized that my dad and I had the same way of getting mad. I've seen him before shaking uncontrollably because of anger. I experienced the shaking, and it was very hard to control. But I tried to keep in discreet. I think it was my way of somehow controlling myself from going all out and performing some kind of restraint and maintaining a civilized exchange of words from someone who's rude and inconsiderate. It took a long while since the feeling of pure hatred on that guy subsided. I think it is evident in this post that I am not over it still. But at least the shaking's gone...hehe

New Post

2006-01-18T13:00:00.000-08:00

I know it has been ages since a fresh entry is sighted on my humble blog but the daily routines of life should be prioritized which makes blogging seem quite impossible to do. Plus I'd really like to show lots of pictures of us but it also means spending more time on the computer because of all the resizing and cropping and all that jazz.

My holidays were pretty good. It was the same old routine. The new thing that we had was getting a fresh tree for us to decorate. Since my daughter is old enough to understand what's really going on, she enjoyed decorating the tree and was proud of her creation, with my help of course. She was basically in charge of the lower portion of the tree which was very funny because you could see an extra number of christmas balls on the lower half. New Year's was good. I'm glad it was spent with my family, my mom's and mine.

So there you go, nothing exciting or extraordinary. I'm just savoring each day right now before I go back to school on Feb. This year would really mean a lot of changes and opportunities for our family. It's exciting but at the same time scary. But you've just got to take the plunge in hopes of a much better life.

Haapy Thanksgiving

2005-11-22T16:34:00.000-08:00

I am thankful for:

my husband's annoying sneeze.

my daughter's cute little temper tantrums.

our petty, childish fights.

relatives who means well, but are sometimes annoying.

test scores, which are a few points shy from what is required.

relatives, who'd call and say they'd stay over for a few days.

missing important deadlines.

parents who can be supportive and critical at the same time.

inlaws who, once again means well but are overly protective and cautious.

the difference my inlaw and I have in child-rearing.

guests who'd show up on a moments notice.

unexpected appointment which means having to cancel something planned a month ago.

intimidating, nerve-wrecking professors.

awkward dinner parties with my husband's co-workers/friends.

embarassing situations at my expense.

I am thankful inspite of all the things that make life seem unbearable because it made me work harder, wake up earlier, stand straighter, wait longer and inhale a little more deeper. In other words, it made a much better version of myself.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

My Roller coaster Ride

2005-11-14T16:51:00.000-08:00

I am currently blogging with so many things pending. It was a crazy roller coaster ride for me a few weeks back but I'm glad that it's done. I guess life is just living up to its reputation, being unfair, tough and sometimes fun. Ok enough of that. The highlights of the past week was spending halloween trick or treating with my daughter; going to Universal Studios; a little bit of shopping here and there and a whole lot of schoolwork. Since it'd be Thanksgiving soon which marks the countdown towards Christmas, schoolwork is getting more hectic by the minute due to the upcoming final exams. And to top it all, a couple of entrace exams I had to take to get into the nursing program.

Sorry to bore you guys with my schedule but, this is basically what's going on with my life right now. I'm totally fine with it providing no other elements would interfere. Then again, without the challenges, life would be dull. So, I'm still thankful for everything that has come and is still to come my way.

Thanks everyone for taking time out to take a peep and sign in my blog! I appreciate it so much!

Trick or Treat

2005-10-28T12:35:00.000-07:00

HALLOWEEN PARADE
on Monday!

Something to smile about

2005-10-27T08:04:00.000-07:00

I've been in a non-blogging mood these past few days because of so many things that I have to personally mend, plus schoolwork keeps piling up. I didn't want to be too clear about certain issues I am undergoing in my life so as not to spoil nor ruin your day in my expense. But of course there should always be something to smile about.

1. It's Halloween! I hope that my daughter's school has something special prepared for that day. Her costume is so cute. We even had a dress rehearsal last week, with a touch of make-up and everything...She's been dying to try my make-up on.

2. A highschool friend of mine emailed me the other day. It has been a decade since we've seen each other, that was way back highschool graduation. She's is California right now and would be staying until November. We're planning to meet in Las Vegas!

3. On the 11th is Veteran's Day, the next upcoming holiday to look forward to. I hope we could go somewhere fun, like San Francisco. It has been awhile since I went there and I haven't taken pictures or toured the place as much as I want to. The only setback is the 7 hour drive.

4. The gloomy, overcast weather is here, and I love it. It's chilly and dark in the morning with layers of fog in the sky. I miss wearing flannel pajamas and comfy bathrobe.

And one more thing...pumpkin carving!!! I hope i could gather nice pictures to show for my next post. Good day everyone!

Psyching myself up

2005-10-15T19:27:00.000-07:00

I've always thought that I am a dynamic person. I thought I'm someone who is flexible and would always welcome change because to experience change means that there is a little bit of a risk-taker in me. Or so I thought. Truth is, I'm afraid of change. I keep pushing on the idea that it is important for someone to be flexible at all times, ready to embrace any kind of spontaneity. But I have come to realize that I am quite the opposite. Now I am suffering the consequence through the constant battle I have with myself whether or not I should do this or that. I hate this feeling, and am willing to do a major overhaul. The key is however, not to listen to the little voice inside who's contented with mediocrity. It's frustrating but somehow I believe that I can benefit from this and finally breakthrough. I just have to believe. I know I can do more than what I think I am capable of. Life is too short to live by the sidelines.

A dream is a wish your heart makes

2005-10-06T08:52:00.000-07:00

A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true

My daughter has long been waiting for this lovely classic Disney movie "Cinderella" which I have learned to love when I was about her age. The songs had a nostalgic feel into it, bringing up memories of my childhood. I even remember singing "A dream is a wish your heart makes" in our kindergarten days. Classic Disney movies like Snow White, Dumbo, Pinnocchio etc. are my first love when it comes to animated films. The ones made today like Toys Story, Monsters Inc. are hilarious, and no doubt very high-tech but nothing beats the classics. What I love most are the slow, waltz-like songs which are accompanied by a princess dance.

And oh, got the 1st & 2nd season of Gilmore Girls on sale! Yey!

Via cellphone

2005-10-04T14:00:00.000-07:00

I am blogging right now via cellphone! How cool is that! :-D But I couldn't go any longer than this post I'm making. It's hard to type in one letter at a time using only my index finger. I'd rather do it the conventional way...But as you can see, if there's a will, there's a way.

Go Mr. Mom!!!

2005-09-27T12:29:00.000-07:00

I just heard over the news about a miracle baby from Ontario, Canada who has survived from developing outside the mother's uterus. The mother was already complaining of pains but not until the doctors found out about this unusual and rare occurrence(as in one in 10 million) had they responded with a casesarean operation on her 33rd week of pregnancy. The baby was reportedly squished in between the mother's liver and abdomen. Aside from dislocated hips and clubfeet which would surely heal over time, she's alive, healthy and normal.

This raises a lot of questions on how the placenta could possibly grow outside the uterus. Meaning, the possibility of MEN having babies! I was screaming my lungs out relaying the message to my husband who, upon hearing the news went white on his face, speechless...I guess with fear...hehe the poor thing.

Me: This is the perfect way to show me you really love me.....*wink*

Husband: I don't think it's going to work...it's unnatural...*face still pale*

Unnatural ka dyan...you're just scared!!! He couldn't even answer with a straight face when I ask him if he'd do it if it were tried and tested. If this would be made possible, God knows how much happier it'd be to have a big family, why not si hubby naman magbubuntis eh!hehe...but for now I'm contented with one.*wishful thinking*

Help

2005-09-25T23:49:00.000-07:00

This is the guy responsible for my recent headache causing me minor physical setbacks. It is truly a pain in the neck to try to comprehend what he is trying to say. Thanks to certain books which translates it in layman's terms, I somehow get the picture. The first time I read Shakespeare, I literally went like what the....? It's just exhausting to look up word after word in the dictionary or google in over the net. Good thing I have my trusty modern English Shakespeare to keep me company over numerous spacing out episodes. It is challenging but I obviously underestimated it's capacity to cause stress.

What I miss most

2005-09-20T17:11:00.000-07:00

What I miss most about the Philippines, in no particular order:

1. big, green & sour mangoes

Which goes perfectly well with bagoong. Mangoes here, both ripe and unripe SUCKS big time. Not even a hint of sourness. I've searched almost all asian groceries but have found none.

2. tropical weather

It hardly rains here, i don't even remember the last time it rained. Some parts of U.S. has an abundance in rainfall but here in Los Angeles...hardly. Whenever it drizzles, expect the news to be all over it. I miss the gust of wind whenever a storm is brewing, the tip-tap of raindrops on the neighbor's roof, the kids playing outside in the rain.

3. friends

I miss having old acquaintances bumping into you in the mall or somewhere unexpected; the surprise and shock when you find a dear old friend; bestfriends just a phonecall away.

4. familiar places

The nostalgic feeling whenever you pass by a school or building or any kind of establishment wherein good and happy memories all come back. You can say..."hey i've been here before" or "this is where we use to do this or that".

5. the sound of children playing in the streets

6. food sold in moveable carts like fishballs...*drooling*

Jolie vs Aniston

2005-09-15T16:16:00.000-07:00

These t-shirts, from what I see and hear are selling like pancakes. Though I can't deny it being amusing and brilliant. Imagine a regular brandless cotton shirt would normally cost 5 bucks or even less but when imprinted with something like Jolie vs Aniston they sell for 30 smackaroos. As usual all the ditsy hollywood wannabees grab one as soon as someone famous wears it...so gullible! Coz I rarely pay for the retail price, such a rip off. Although brand names are cool, I go for the look, quality , style and price regardless of the name whether someone/something famous or not is imprinted at the back.

For the sake of fun, whose side are you in?
Me...Go Aniston!
Have fun this weekend you guys...Be wise shoppers!

Welcome to L.A.

2005-09-12T20:56:00.000-07:00

The Dream Center is now the new home of 300 New Orleans evacuees to start a brand new life and rebuild. This is a picture from our fastly growing church at the heart of downtown Los Angeles. It has been around for more than 10 years spreading the gospel and helping those in need. And the time of need surely came as the victims of hurricane Katrina rocked the nation. Our church is housing hundreds of people until they get back to their feet; offering shelter, food, clothes and more importantly, jobs. Since the media found out about what this non-profit organization has been doing, celebrities like Magic Johnson have offered their promises of support as well. I am so proud to be a part of such an incredible mission to save lives.

You be the judge

2005-09-10T08:18:00.000-07:00

How would you react if I'd post a picture like this and say "Our maids bidding me farewell. Aren't they so cute?" That was the caption underneath the picture. You can enlarge it if you want. Hindi ko po maids yan. And if ever, I wouldn't treat them as a possession to brag about.

I came across this site. Although I initially hesitated to post it, I could no longer keep it to myself. I don't know what to make out of it, just in total disbelief and annoyance. You be the judge.

Wanna see her site click here. Don't comment ha, if you do don't mention my name!

Back to School

2005-09-07T17:59:00.000-07:00

Ho-hum...it's back to school. Two weeks of vacation was way too much for me that I actually get to miss the hustle and bustle of schoolwork. As usual the student-filled halls were the evident signs of a fresh new semester. Students from all size, shape and race roam the hallway. Some figuring out where they're supposed to be, some obviously just trying to pass time.

My schedule starts with a computer class at 9-11 every mondays and wednesdays. It has broken my record of the most boring class mainly because the instructor is an elderly man. He must be at least 70! I feel so sorry for him though, he seems so sweet but someone has to tell him to retire. Man! it takes forever to get to the actual lesson. If it wasn't a requirement to get into California State Univ, I would have bolted out the door in a second.

An early Anthropology class starts off my Tuesdays and Thursdays. Now, this class is so interesting. Scanning the list of reading assignments from the syllabus, makes me want to explore more about the origins of mankind. We don't have to believe in the theory of evolution but since the course revolves mainly around it, we have to know a great deal about this controversial topic.

After the Anthro class is Critical Thinking. I really do not know what to expect out of this course but a lot of reading. Maybe short stories and the likes from famous writers. The instructor is not too bad.

An hour before lunch, I sit everyday in Intermediate Algebra. I have been waiting for this instructor since last year because only he could make math bearable. I could not believe that I not only got an A in his class but I knew what I was doing.

For now I don't have much shoolwork to do. But I can feel it brewing. Like the calmness before the storm. In a few weeks time, I'd be back to burning the midnight oil.

I'm sharing a positive thought that made my day today.

When you worry and hurry through your day, it is like an unopened gift...Thrown away...Life is not a race. Take it slower. Hear the music before the song is over.

Life may not be the party we hoped for... but while we are here we might as well dance!"

Just blabbering

2005-08-29T05:19:00.000-07:00

Since I'm on my 2 week vacation from school, I have all the time to read my friends' blogs plus bloghop for more intresting people. Hirap pala ng ganito, you expect people to come up with a recent post so you can read something new or know what they have been up to lately. But it's wrong though, I know that I shouldn't be expecting them to have the extra time to update just because I as of the moment have the luxury of time to spare.
I know, I know. I'm basically just blabbering.

I've noticed too that one's schedule may not be the only reason why one frequently or scarcely updates they're sites. Because there were plently of times when, although I have the time to blog, I don't if I'm not in the mood. But there are times, like now, when I could go on and on. There's so much to blog about, so little time. So I've come up with a few of these funny bits from my family.

I was playing "twinkle, twinkle little star"on the piano (not like a pro ha) one note at a time so that my daughter could sing along. After the song she said: "My turn to play mom! I'll play the shake your booty song".....

aunt: Let's go to my place, we just rented a new DVD.
me: Really, what movie did you rent?
aunt: Yung "mother f*cker" ( she was dead serious, still haven't realize what she just said)

Everybody went like: ha? anong movie yun?
aunt: Yung sequel ng "Meet the Parents".

Ngekk! Meet the Fockers pala!

We went out with my husband's family one day, well of course my mother-in-law was there too. After dinner we headed to Starbucks for a cup of mocha frap for me and a machiatto for my husband. Since my mother in-law wasn't really exposed to new stuff, she wasn't aware of such heavenly coffeeshops like Starbucks, so she was somewhat surprised on how good the coffee tasted. But on the way home my husband compained on having a huge tummy ache, which he usually experiences on certain days on certain food that he eats. So it wasn't new to us that he was screaming while driving as fast as he could to reach our home to use the bathroom. My mother-in-law on the other hand didn't handle it quite well. She was so worried and was almost about to put a curse on what she thinks the source of his poor son's tummy ache. Yes, she blamed it on Starbucks.

MOM: O yan ha. Sa uulitin ingat kayo sa mga iniinom ninyo!!!
(hello? then why would it be so popular if it brought diarrhea to everybody)

:Iba yung gatas na ginagamit nila! Hindi maganda yon!
(but she admittedly ~~liked~~ loved it before the tummy ache incident)I distinctly remember her saying: Ang sarap nito ah!

:Wag na wag na kayong iinom ng STOCKBAR!!!

Hay, old people talga. I didn't have the energy to explain to her that some people are lactose intolerant or just have irritable bowel syndrome. And my husband happens to have one of those syndromes, it's no big deal to us, but obviously it was to her. My husband and I were laughing our tails off when we got home.

Sand and Surf

2005-08-25T02:05:00.000-07:00

Whenever we go to the beach we usually just play on the shore, too cold to jump in and too scared of getting engulfed by the waves. But just recently, thanks to my bro, all that has changed. We actually get to enjoy the water itself, not only the sun and the sand. He introduced us to this sport called bodyboarding. It's almost like surfing, the difference is that you lay flat on your stomach, as opposed to standing up on a surfboard. The bodyboard is half as long as the surfboard and much wider. It's somewhat the beginning lesson for surfing. So that's why these surfer dudes get so addicted to the waves. The bigger the waves, the better and the faster you go. It's like driving or riding a bike, once you learn how to balance atop the board, you can experience the thrill of riding with the waves.

There are times when I get so overwhelmed with the water. You think it's only about 3-4 feet, but when a big wave comes, it can swallow you whole. I've never felt so afraid yet so alive at the same time. The rush of adrenaline keeps pumping all throughout my body and makes me forget that I don't know how to swim so I try to stay close to somone when I'm out there. So there you go. I still have so much to tell, but basically those are the highlights. I made a collage of several beach pictures from the last two days with this amazing program but I'll be tweaking it as the days progress. Sorry guys but I made this in a rush plus I'm a photoshop newbie, I just wanted you to see what I've been up to. We're taking advantage of our vacation so we're trying to go outdoors as much as we can. This is our last hooorah for the summer. Tata for now...

Past, Present, Future

2005-08-22T11:59:00.000-07:00

Naomi tagged me with this very interesting meme which I happily answered as soon as I read it. Although it required a lot of reminiscing, it was fun.

20 years ago:

Enjoying my baby brother who was born a year before. I could recall being scolded because I was trying to press his nose, for reasons that only a kid would know. Maybe it was some sort of a subconscious feeling of jealousy upon the arrival of a new sibling. Or maybe I just wanted to play.

15 years ago:

I was 10 years old. Had been involved in several oratorical contests in school. Played the usual games outdoors at our former house in las pinas. Church activities was also a priority.

10 years ago:

Moved to valenzuela but still occasionally visited our house in the north. Just graduated from a highschool dominated by chinese students. It was the most strict and boring school that I know. The principals were old maids...I mean literally spinster hags from hell. They didn't like students having fun, so there goes my prom. NO loud noises. NO fieldtrips. No proms. Yup it sucks. But then I guess I was forced to focus more in academics rather than extracurricular acitivities (read:parties).

5 years ago:

A fresh college graduate blessed with an opportunity to visit my relatives here in L.A. The first time I ever travelled alone in an airplane, to a foreign country. It was a blast. I met my future husband, who was already being prepared to meet me as well. We were already being matched as a couple because both our families know each other very well. We instantly hit it off.

3 years ago:

I migrated in the U.S., got married, conceived and gave birth to a beautiful child.

Last year:

I was able to be away for such a long time from my parents, who were then waiting for their petition in the Philippines. It made me stronger, responsible and tougher as a woman and as a mother.

This year:

Challenges of being a wife, parent and student makes it all the more exciting. With the help of course of my loving husband who has given me so much love and support.

Yesterday:

I was studying for an upcoming final exam in Political Science.

Last Night:

I was muching on Doritos and sipping raspberry iced tea while watching Late Night with Conan O' Brien. I was still up by 3am. I guess its the caffeine.

Today:

Finished the last and final exam from Dr. Theile's class. The exam was an exhausting 100 item test about the U.S. government which gave me a huge headache.

Tomorrow:

Summer session's over and looking forward to a 2 week vacation from school. I am in dire need of some serious shopping. I always reward myself after long hours of studying...hehe it keeps me going.

Next year:

Hoping to be in my chosen major and future career. I'm guessing that I'd be all over my books, memorizing medical terms.

5-10 years:

Hoping to be a full-fledged nurse practitioner and would have bought our very own house. We're planning to expand our family, hopefully have a baby boy, that's if I get over the trauma of childbirth. We'll see. Yet I'm very content with my duaghter.

Danielle: "Mom! my friend has a new baby brother! Can you buy me a baby sister too, puhlease..."

little Black Book

2005-08-21T00:39:00.000-07:00

"Fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me twice, shame on me."

It's 12 midnight and I just finished watching little black book. I finally spied it on sale this afternoon while grocery shopping. Eight bucks is the lowest price, it couldn't go cheaper than that.

When I expect less from a movie, I always end up liking it so much more. Quoting directly from the dvd cover, this movie is wickedly funny. I liked it because of its hardcore depiction of reality. It revealed one of the main hindrances in a relationship. One example is lying. Intentionally changing or altering facts is lying. But omission of the facts could also be lying. Scapegoaters love this excuse. They say what one doesn't know, doesn't hurt her/him. Or that they weren't lying, they just withheld the truth. So basically, the story revovles around this.

The reason why I could relate to this movie is because there are a few people I know who are in serious relationships but are blinded by the truth. The naked, painful truth about their bfs. The signs are right up on their noses and yet they refuse to stare at it in the eye. They probably think that they could change their ways but the odds are low especially when he cheats on you the second time around. I believe that they are blinded by the pseudo perfect relationship they are having afraid to realize that mr. right ain't the right guy after all. Unfortunately, some women love their man so much to the point of sacrificing their own self-esteem. Little did they know, they deserve so much better than those lying scumbags. I don't want to give out the details of the story because it would be such a spoil to those who have not seen it yet. I highly, highly recommend this especially to those who are currently looking out for mr. right, or may think she is with mr. right. It's a very good eye opener because the movie didn't sugar coat the reality of relationships with men, their nature and the things women put through with them.

Then, after seeing the movie...consider yourself warned.

Here fishy, fishy

2005-08-16T12:55:00.000-07:00

As a young girl I was taught the basic chores by my mom. I wasn't very fond of it, but who was anyway, but as a mother I realized that my mom was and is always right. The things she was trying to teach us will greatly be used when starting your own family. I vividly recall when she tried to teach my how to clean a fish, which I detested, not only because it was way too hard or should I say challenging (palusot pa), but it stinks. Before getting into the insides of the fish, a certain cut must be applied/performed to get the gut out. I would get little stabs on my fingers because of all the bones, fins and all the sharp parts there is on my way. But that was nothing compared to the fishy smell that would linger for quite awhile on your hands. And so I stubbornly rejected this particular chore and told myself I would never be caught cleaning a fish.

You see, mother may not always be right, you know. Markets here in the U.S. conveniently does all the work for ya! All you have to do is say the magic word....Clean and cut please! And voila! Ready to cook and serve as you please. No more smelly hands and gut infested trash which by the way is a stink bomb.

How in the world did I come up with this post? I was craving for Miso dish. I don't know if you're familiar with it coz I wasn't too until I tasted it in my aunt's resto here in U.S. Yup, I got to taste it here, not in the Philippines(wonder why? I guess my mom doesn't cook that much either..hehe it runs in the family). It's almost like sinigang but with fish(bangus/milkfish) instead. They have the instant Knorr mix, so basically all I have to do is boil water. So there you go, I gave out another personal thing about myself, too lazy to cook.

sunset

2005-08-10T23:44:00.000-07:00

One of the things I love the most is the beach, most especially the sight of the sunset. I just realized that I still do not have a decent shot of one of the most beautiful scenes God has given us. And so this afternoon, around 5pm we leisurely walked down Sta. Monica beach to bury our feet midst the sand and for once hope to take a good aim at the sunset. Our timing couldn't be better. We witnessed the orange rays of the sun casting down on us as it gently and slowly set among the clouds. What a wonderful and serene sight indeed.

TAG

2005-08-10T21:03:00.000-07:00

Got nothing to post, might as well do this. Got tagged by Yax. It was ok, though, got to think about some stuff.

Seven things that scare you:
1. public speaking
2. public humiliation
3. being tortured alive
4. drowning
5. insects of all kinds
6. dogs
7. unplanned pregnancy

Seven things you like the most:
1. shopping/clothes/ fashion
2. reading
3. travelling/vacations
4. the beach
5. summer nights/gloomy mornings
6. weddings
7. cakes

Seven important things in your room:
1. t.v.
2. pillows/blanket
3. remote controls
4. armoire
5. closet
6. aircon/heater
7. books

Seven random facts about you:
1. I'm an introvert at first.
2. Takes awhile to warm up with new friends.
3. Very good and loyal friend.
4. I'd love to explore mortuary science.
5. Taking up nursing.
6. I have a 3 yr old kid.
7. Regular church-goer

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. see my daughter walk down the aisle
2. have lots of grandkids
3. travel around the world esp Europe
4. own a house and a few real estates
5. earn a masteral degree
6. renew our vows
7. learn how to swim and be good at it

Seven things you can do:
1. look for the best bargains not sacrificing quality
2. multitask
3. drive
4. dissect a cat/frog
5. study while watching tv
6. memorize a ton of things about anatomy/physiology
7. keep a secret

Seven things you can't do:
1. math
2. understand politics
3. pretend that philosophy is fun
4. betray a friend/loved one
5. sleep without my daughter
6. swim
7. tattoo

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:
1. droopy eyes
2. smile
3. body
4. hygiene
5. clothes/car
6. sense of humor
7. personality

Seven things you say the most:
1. Danielle
2. honey
3. No!
4. Try not to make a mess.
5. Come on.
6. Hold on..please.
7. Hay naku!

Seven celeb crushes (whether local or foreign):
1. Vin Diesel
2. Tyson Beckford
3. the guy in the NOtebook
4. Angelina JOlie
5. Logan from Gilmore Girls
6. Shawn Wayans
7. ?

Seven people you want to see to take this quiz:
Nah...don't wanna pass it around :)

One Year Ago Today...

2005-08-04T15:21:00.000-07:00

I entered the blogging world exactly one year ago. Found out about it from a friend, got curious and tried it out myself. At that point in time I desperately needed an outlet to pour my emotions in to. I still remember how I nervously typed on the keyboard, my heart pounding so hard, as I emptied my heart and soul. I made it look so dramatic though, truth is I was having my customary that-time-of-the-month fit. After that, it felt so darn good. I know it's cliche, but I really felt the weight off my shoulder that I let out a pure, deep sigh.

Although it was easy to write the first time, I had second thoughts on my next post. Anxiousness came over me as thoughts of all the possible ways I could get into trouble if I don't watch what I type haunted my head. The old guarded self came upon me, as it was always there from the very start so I hesitated to make my blog public. The strangers lurking on my blog was the least of my worries, I don't know them, therefore my secrets/thoughts/feelings are safe. Its the people that I know and come in contact with in daily life gave me second thoughts. I knew in my heart that it would someday bite me in the ass. I just know it. There are a few things I am certain about in this world, this is one of them. So I started filtering whatever it is I wanted to write. All the personal details remain bottled up somewhere. But there were times where I badly needed to blog about certain things so I somehow camouflaged it, avoiding details and making it as vague as possible. And it worked! That's why I think, I am still here today blogging myself away.

Here's to a year more of blogging. May yours be as cathartic as mine.

Unwind

2005-08-01T13:32:00.000-07:00

Days quickly turn into weeks
Weeks into months
Months into years
Can't stop the hands of time
Everything's a blur
Gotta relax and unwind.

It's one of those once-in-a-blue moon night out without cute little daughter constantly keeping us on our toes. It's kinda weird though, whenever we go out with her it's always a battle; but during times of temporary separation, I can't wait to go home and hug her to bits. Maybe the temp separationg is what we all need. A breathing space as a reminder of how much you truly miss someone.

xoxo
I happen to look up and see the date, it's the first day of the month! No wonder I'm getting sentimental...not PMS! Just realizing how time flies...the ber months are coming. Gosh 4 months til christmas! Yay!

As you can see I'm holding my oh-so favorite drink. Guess I had a little too much...I'm in serious sugar rush!

Hey I noticed a sudden increase of bloghoppers in my site(i know it's not a lot compared to others, but it is for me). I like it! Kinda curious, though, they came almost on the same time. Cool! The more the merrier.

Chill Out

2005-07-27T12:35:00.000-07:00

You just can't get enough of these. It's the perfect way to beat the summer heat, nevermind the caloric content. I try to limit one per week so as not to get too much addicted on it. And besides, I already have a hard time stopping my daughter from consuming the whole thing. I need to cut back for the sake of my daughter...or maybe not. Sad to say I had to consider sneaking out as my next resort. Ahh..the lengths I go for this drink. Last night, we went out without her so I could have my weekly caffeine addiction. And it was worth it. I usually go straight for Starbucks, but I recently discovered Coffee Bean , it's so good too. The Caramel Ice blended is heavenly, not too sweet compared to the Caramel Frappuccino. They're both good though, I just wanted to try something different. I was surfing when I found this site...it was a very hilarious STARBUCKScommercial a few months ago. I know you'd enjoy this as much as I did..please do take a peak.

Awesomely Wacky Celebrity Baby Names

2005-07-20T13:11:00.000-07:00

"You know you're a star when your kid's name is Pirate."

Celebrities have it all. The fame, the money, multiple divorce settlements. So when you're born into such lavish lifestyle, what can you do...but succumb into the madness(although there are a few exceptions, of course). They want everything big, one-of-a-kind and gold/platinum plated. They also want it unique...baby names would be no exception. They'd think of the most uncommon yet craziest names. Names that would make you go..wtf? (Coz I sure did.)
Here's a few from VH1's Awesomely wacky celebrity baby names

SOME OF THE WACKIEST NAMES...

AUDIO SCIENCE
(who in the world would name their kid like a science experiment)
Parent: Actress Shannyn Sossamon

RUMER
(yes. as in rumor, meaning gossip)
Parents:Demi Moore & estranged husband Bruce Willis
Wacky Sibling names: Scout & Tellulah

BLANKET
(well, what do u expect from MJ...why am I not surprised)
Adoptive Parent: Michael Jackson
Wacky named sibling: Prince

BANJO
(not that too weird)
Parents: Actress Rachel Griffiths & husband Andrew Taylor

DENIM
(why not corduroy?)
Parents: Singer Toni Braxton & husband Keri Lewis
Wacky named sibling: Diezel (a denim brand name...what's with all the denim?)

DIXIE DOT
(kinda like a dog's name)
Parents: UK TV personality Anna Ryder Richardson & husband Colin MacDougall
Wacky named sibling: Bibi Belle

FIFI TRIXIBELL
(another dog's name)
Parents: Live Aid founder Bob Geldof & UK TV personality Paula Yates
Wacky named siblings: Pixie & Peaches Honeyblossom

GOD'ISS LOVE STONE
(he better grow up to be a minister/priest)
Parents: Rapper Lil' Mo & husband Al Stone
Wacky named sibling: Heaven

JERMAJESTY
(can you say...self-centered?)
Parents: Singer Jermaine Jackson & now ex-wife Alejandra

PHINNEUS & HAZEL
(i actually find it cute...gotta cuz named Hazel)
Parents: Actress Julia Roberts & Camera man husband Danny Moder

PILOT INSPEKTOR
(another WTF name! sounds more like an occupation)
Parents: Actor Jason Lee & girlfriend Beth Riesgraf

PIRATE
(*aaaargggghhh*)
Parents: Korn frontman Jonathan Davis & porn star wife Deven Davis

POPPY HONEY
(sana honey na lang)
Parents: TV Chef Jamie Oliver and wife Julie Oliver
Wacky named sibling: Daisy Boo

PUMA
(my fave brand....not a baby name though)
Parent: Singer Erykah Badu
Wacky named sibling: Seven

REBEL
(do they actually know the meaning of these names? check out his siblings' names)
Parents: Director Robert Rodriguez & wife Elizabeth Avellan
Wacky named siblings: Racer, Rocket, & Rogue

REIGN BEAU
(pronounced as RAINBOW...kinda cute huh...hehe)
Parents: Actor Ving Rhames & wife Deborah Reed
Wacky named sibling: Freedom

SAFFRON SAHARA
(sounds like a tourist spot)
Parents: Duran Duran frontman Simon Le Bon & wife Yasmin Parvaneh
Wacky named siblings: Amber Rose & Tallulah Pine

Soak up the Sun

2005-07-18T15:59:00.000-07:00

I have been such an irregular blogger these days not because I lack the inspiration but I usually get caught up with the daily routine of life. Plus, since it is summer, I had my share of water fun in Raging waters, basked in the scorching heat, rummaged through endless shopping malls and outlet stores, had a couple of sleep overs and gatherings, and of course I still had to attend to my summer class as well. So I pretty much had a little bit of both, work and play. I am so happy to have enjoyed it outdoors as much as I wanted to. Missed to have once again experienced summer nights, wherein the breeze isn't as cold nor as humid, just the right temperature for staying out late without a sweater on. Thanks everyone for dropping by...here's my little angel to give u a *wink*. Enjoy the summer heat!

Clueless

2005-06-28T12:31:00.000-07:00

It has been quite awhile since my last post. There's so many things to blog that I don't know where to start. My stories get so piled up that I end up posting nothing at all. I also require a considerable amount of time to come up with a decent paragraph or two. Since it's summer, I tend try to enjoy the outdoors and bask under the sun as much as I can. Okay, on with my post.

Yesterday my daughter and I walked about half a block to a local korean supermarket because I was craving for this certain squid-flavored chip I had a couple months back. We then proceeded towards the snack aisle only to find out that they no longer sell it anymore. Either that or it's out of stock. I so wanted to ask a salesperson if they still have it but suddenly stopped myself from doing so because of the mere fact that I could not read and speak korean. It would have been so funny and embarassing on having to describe something I absolutely have no clue on, to someone who could barely understand English. All know is that its purple and has the picture of a squid in it.

After a couple of minutes walking back and forth hoping they have misplaced it, I finally decided in giving it up and try looking for another one instead. It was the hardest thing to do. I didn't want to risk buying something I'd regret eating later on because it would have been a waste. The korean caricatures were not helping either. I finally settled on something that said chicken flavor in it. At least there's something I'm sure of. Moral lesson is not to get hooked on something you can't even read nor describe. Or maybe just save the bag just in case. It would surely come in handy.

Flip-flops

2005-06-09T09:12:00.000-07:00

My daughter has a ton of footwear; from Sunday formal/casuals to her cinderella glass slippers (more like rubber, the ones that you buy at the Disney store). She has a number of slippers which she interchangeably wears during the course of the day depending on her mood. But just recently we got her two pairs of thong flip-flops. I just realized that she has never owned one which would be the reason why she loves mine so much.

As soon as we've purchased it, she couldn't wait to put it on. So there we were, strolling in the mall, on her cute little flip-flops. After awhile of walking around, I noticed that she had this unusual walk, which you'd normally see on an aching, uncomfortable feet. She wasn't complaining though, so I asked her if her feet were sore from the new slippers. She sheepishly nodded her head but continued to walk despite the throbbing. I insisted her to change to something more comfortable but she refused. I coudn't stand the sight so I decided to carry her as we made our way home. A budding Carrie from Sex in the City or Imelda Marcos perhaps? Gosh, I think I've created a monster..hehe Oh well, it looked pretty darn cute.

I'd Rather

2005-06-01T09:07:00.000-07:00

Today is our fourth year anniversary. I couldn't believe how time seem to just pass by. In a matter of a couple of years I have attained fulfillment and utter joy with the company of two lovely people, my husband and daughter. My mother often asks me if I had any regrets on having to leave my single life behind. She probably thinks that I have not enjoyed being single as much as I have wanted to. Honestly, no regrets at all. Instead of feeling trapped or strapped down because of marriage, I felt quite the opposite. It's a feeling of complete openness, freedom and a sense of accomplishment whenever you see your family happy and healthy. I'd lie if I were to say that it was all a bliss. Hate to burst some of your bubbles but life is filled with uncertainty, problems and frustrations. But these are the very things that makes you love your partner even more. The difficult times in married life is essential for growth because it is through these times that we learn how to compromise, understand and balance each other out. In other words, it would either break or make you. Simple as that. But if you really love each other every obstacle would be just another chance to know him/her more. Only one song comes to my mind right now.

I'd Rather
Luther Vandross

I thought sometime alone was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone
and I tried to find out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.

Hello, I'm Sneezy

2005-05-23T20:54:00.000-07:00

You know that dreadful feeling when you know that you are coming down with something. Either a cold, sorethroat, flu or a combination of all three. I have been ignoring these symptoms since it started this morning, and I'm afraid that my sniffles has gotten into rapid, repetetive sneezes and an itchy throat. I'm trying not to drink any kind of over-the-counter medication as much as possible because the old fashion way would be the ideal way to cure this.

Rest and fluids. That's all I need. Oh gawd! I hate this; and I'm blaming it all in the weather. Can't believe how chilly mornings can turn into a sizzling afternoon in one day. I just hope that I'd feel better before the up coming holiday arrives.

*sniff* Hope you guys wouldn't catch this aweful bug from someone. *sniff*

The Notebook

2005-05-17T19:11:00.000-07:00

My hubby borrowed a few DVDs from a friend. One of them was The Notebook. Yup, I know. I heard a lot of good reviews about it and is giddy about watching it with my hubby. It was about 10 0'clock last night when we decided to do so. I knew my hubby wouldn't last that long in a very romantic and sappy movie. I think he would if we were to watch in the morning contrary to the long, tiring day after work. A few minutes after the movie started I heard him snore. Hehe. Just what I thought he would do.

I originally planned to watch only for an hour but it turned out to be quite interesting and definitely very romantic. Hay, young love, so pure and innocent yet so naive. It's the typical girl meets boy; parents disapproves boy; separated for years; meets again just when girl is about to wed someone else; boy and girl reunited. It was all being narrated by an old man who turned out to be the boy in the story. He is reading this story to an old lady who happens to be , whoelse, the girl. The twist is, the old lady could not recall any of it. Her husband reads her the story everyday in hopes of somehow regaining her memory back. It reminded me of 50 first dates, but in a serious note. On the last part, she somehow remembers that it was their love story he was reading to her unfortunately, only for a few minutes. They are soon joined by the power of their love as they both peacefully and synchronically pass away. Only in the movies...

The story is not something to be excited about. But since the leading actor looked so dreamy, it was worth watching it (I first saw him in Murder by Numbers). A lot of kissing going on too! Definitely for the hopeless romantics.

My rating : Pwede na rin.

Randomness

2005-05-12T17:40:00.000-07:00

I can feel that summer is truly just around the corner. For the past two days I have been dreaming about jumping into a pool, or tiptoeing on the seashore. Yesterday I bought a couple of bathing suits for my daughter and a pair for myself as well. Can't wait to go sunbathing in the scorching heat and get sunburns afterwards. As of now, no one could tell if this weather is going to last. California weather is so crazy that no once could guarantee anything at all. One day it feels like summer, the next day it’s raining cats and dogs. Just two days ago or so, it was so windy and chilly. We're planning to go to a water park soon to cool off. So, fingers crossed.

x-x-x

I know it's kind of old news but I just have got to blog about last Tuesday’s amazing race. Truly amazing. I have never literally jumped in front of the tv, cheering them on, in hopes that the underdog would win. Uchenna and Joyce's competitors were very tough. Rob and Amber were quite a team. They're smart, physically fit, and fast that they have maintained to be either the first or second place all throughout the race. This morning I saw them on Regis and Kelly's morning show. And they were all ranting and blaming it on American Airlines. I, myself was in shock as I watch the stewardess open the airplane's door once again for Uchenna and Joyce. I think it was an act of God. I remember them praying for a little miracle, and their prayers were answered.

The last part, Uchenna was begging for money to pay the taxicab, made my heart race because the show's editing team made it look like Rob and Amber were closely gaining on them. On the other hand, I was curious if that was just a dramatic effect. Was there a rule about leaving your cabs unpaid? Coz if that were up to me, I'd dash to finish the race and pay the driver triple what I owe him, don't you think? Anyway, so glad that these seemingly good people got what they deserved. I heard from a later report, they were about to go through in vitro fertilization.

And so now, the apprentice; it's down to the final two. So happy to finally have a sure female winner, my bet is on the street marts. I have not really watched this consistently but I wouldn't miss tonight's finale.

x-x-x
"If I could" Meme

I was tagged by jassy, so here goes.

Rules: What follows is a list of different occupations. You must select at least five of them. You may add more if you like to your list before you pass it on (after you select five of the items as it was passed to you). Of the five you selected, you are to finish each phrase with what you would do as a member of that profession. Then pass it on to three other bloggers.

Here's that list:
If I could be a scientist... If I could be a farmer...
If I could be a musician... If I could be a doctor
If I could be a painter... If I could be a gardener
If I could be a missionary... If I could be a chef...
If I could be an architect... If I could be a linguist...
If I could be a psychologist... If I could be a librarian...
If I could be an athlete... If I could be a lawyer...
If I could be an innkeeper... If I could be a professor...
If I could be a writer... If I could be a backup dancer...
If I could be a goonie... If I could be a spy...
If I could be a llama-rider... If I could be a bonnie pirate...
If I could be a midget stripper... If I could be a proctologist...
If I could be a TV-Chat Show host... If I could be an actor...
If I could be a judge... If I could be a Jedi...
If I could be a mob boss... If I could be a backup singer...
If I could be a CEO... If I could be a hobbit...
If I could be a movie reviewer... If I could be a monkey's uncle...
If I could be a gangster... If I could be Miss America...

I chose:

If I could be a scientist I'd discover the cure for diabetes, cancer, AIDs etc.

If I could be an athlete I'd be a swimmer. I'd join the Olympics and beat all record holders and would probably be in the Guinness Book of World Records.

If I could be a backup dancer I'd dance my butt off with all the famous faces, from Britney to P. Diddy, in hopes of getting discovered and making it big just like Jlo.

If I could be a spy I'd spy on Osama Bin Laden and his cronies. I'd also find out if Saddam Hussein is keeping any weapons of mass destruction.

If I could be a CEO I'd be in the fashion/clothes industry. I'd build the biggest empire of affordable yet good quality and high fashion clothes.

If I could be a gangster I'd tell my fellow gangsters to quit and straighten out our acts because there's so much more to life that being a gangster.

If I could be Miss America/Philippines I'd be all over the world, showing off my signature wave. I'd try my best to help third world countries.

Okay. That was fun. Got a little carried away there...

I tag Madel, Dred and Goldi.

Four Generations of Women

2005-05-08T07:43:00.000-07:00

My Grandmother, mother and daughter.

x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x

Before I was a MOM

Before I was a Mom
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom,
I slept as late as I wanted
And never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was Mom
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot words of lullabies.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on
Pooped on
Spit on
Chewed on
Peed on
Or pinched by tiny fingers

Before I was a Mom
I had complete control of:
My thoughts
My body
And my mind.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child
So that doctors could do tests
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
When I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
Could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
Could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay
I had never known the warmth
The joy
The love
The heartache
The wonder
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Funny Phonecall

2005-05-05T20:28:00.000-07:00

Please, please read this post! I know it's long but I promise that you'll love the ending...

I was busily surfing the net a few hours ago when the phone rang. Expecting a call from my hubby, I promptly answered only to find out that it was an annoying telemarketer. From all the experience I had with telemarketers I knew that if there would be a time to be upfront and blunt, it would be on his/her first few uttered words. "I am not interested with whatever you're selling, goodbye." It should be quick and snappy. No if's, no buts, no more questions asked. But then I distinctively heard him mentioning that he was from my school LATTC and is offering me a scholarship, it made me perk up a bit. Although it was very difficult to understand him because of the heavy korean accent, I did my best to listen carefully because it would be a waste to pass up such good opportunity, or so I thought. Since I'm in the dean's list (modesty aside), I knew that I could be qualified for this alleged scholarship proposal.

He then proceeded asking me some prequilification questions. In the back of my head I knew and I swear that if this guy would ask me about personal questions such as social security number, birthday or anything that would potentially jeopardize the security of my identification, I'd hang up. He didn't. He asked me common scholarship prequal questions. If I had any criminal background or credit problems; any unpaid bills or tickets; the total number of course units I have so far. The answer would be NO. My background is clean and I have earned sufficient units.

My ears perked up once again when he started questioning my height and weight! That was definitely very odd. Not the typical question to ask. I halfheartedly gave him the info, he replied that my height would be a problem (since I'm so short) but is still optimistic.

Okay here's the catch....As he was babbling along about all the benefits I would receive, I heard one word that stunned me. The ARMY. Oh my gosh! After making me succumb to the most temptous offer he then blurted that I would be sent to Iraq or any god-forsaken land for that matter, to "serve my country". What a jerk! But I kept my cool, although in my head I was at the same time laughing so hard and embarassed by the whole conversation. I politely and slowly backed off, using my hubby as an escape goat. I told him that I had to discuss it with my husband and would let him know if ever we are interested. Thank God, he took the bait and ended the most surreal chat I had ever have. I pretended to jot down the contact numbers he gave in case I'd be interested to sign up.

I have all my respect to the men and women out there in Iraq and other places in the Middle East. They are heroes. But this ain't for me. My husband and I are laughing our tails off and joked around that I was nearly sent to the battlegrounds. Well, not really the war zone per se but the medical field because he knew that I am to pursue nursing. The offer was ridiculously enticing, tuition-free education from any university of my choice, rent-free townhouse, and cash. It was a very good deal but then you'll be far away from your loved ones, not knowing when your "service" would be completed. That's the catch.

Phew! That was close. That is why, in life, I have learned that when something is too good to be true, it's not true. Read the fine prints, there's almost always a catch.

Extra, extra

2005-05-02T10:19:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to know your reaction on this. Not sure if you guys know it already but I just found out this weekend. Guess who Tom, as in Tom Cruise, is dating nowadays?
She's no other than Joey, the girly girl from a the hit show Dawson's Creek. I like her, she's cute and feminine. Think they're about 20 years apart. But who cares? Tom is still Tom Cruise and they look darn good together. They're tinsel towns newest gorgeous couple and the paparazzi's latest stalking target. It's like honey to the bees.

Would you date a guy who's way older than you are? I say, why not, if he's as gorgeous as Tom or Brad. Of course there's things to take account as well that's most significant in any relationship, the chemistry. Some couple just click, regardless of age, race or socio-eco status. And I'm happy for them. Demi Moore and that Ashton guy, has been dating for quite awhile now. It's just kind of weird seeing Ashton along with her kids, though. I think it's a bad idea to stand close beside the little ones. But then again...who cares?

Starstruck

2005-04-28T10:48:00.000-07:00

Eversince I became a mom I was introduced to a whole new set of people/characters which we now consider our celebrities. Together with my daughter, we've become avid and die hard fanatics of almost all disney characters, most especially the disney princesses. As soon as we set foot on disney grounds we start hunting for huge mascots roaming around the theme park for an autograph and souvenir pictures. Here's a fresh new batch of our so-called celebrities.

Randomness

2005-04-26T18:27:00.000-07:00

I have been neglecting house chores for quite awhile now. I find it so hard to clean when I'm not up to it, but who does, anyway? But as a mom, it isn't a choice, it's a responsibility. Not that my place is filthy, it doesn't come to that point yet, and I won't make it happen. It's just the clutter of things around, piles of little toys and useless things on the counter that seems to grow as soon as you begin ignoring it. I just had to quit fooling around the computer and force myself to scrub the kitchen floor and put things where it should be. The first few minutes was a drag but I finally got into the mood, I just kept reminding myself of the good feeling I get after. And so now my closets organized once again, not sure how long it'll last. Toys have been put away but not for long.

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Had this chocolate craving these past few days. Not sure if it's part of PMS but hershey's chocolate kisses have been really hard to resist. I am munching on a chocolate cake and a cup of milk while typing this post.
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My friend Dred and I have this common thing about this particular reality show called America's Next Top Model. According to her, Season 3 is currently airing in the Phils. I discovered the show on its second season and have been watching it ever since. I especially like how Ms. Tyra Banks(and her staff) conducts, directs and films the show as a whole. I usually get all sick and tired if a reality show is pushed too far or if it's just plain dumb. This on the other hand, for me is a show worth watching. As its name implies, several wanna-be supermodels are faced with different themed challenges and are judged according to the best photograph they could produce week after week. The weakest is eliminated after each photo shoot until only one is left to be crowned as ANTM. We are now currently in the fourth season, I'm rooting for this Asian-looking chic which, if sources are true, has a black-mexican-indian father and black-irish mother. Phew...no wonder she looks gorgeous! Check out Naima.
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What is up with the world today? Not only today but ever since Britney Spears married and is now pregnant with her first child, the world seems to revolve around her. But hey, she and hubby Mr. Federline found a way to cash in with all the attention. Their soon airing their own reality show which is reportedly worth 2 million dollars. Hmm...wonder how long or short this celeb couple will stay together?

One Gloomy Day

2005-04-22T20:08:00.000-07:00

Had a morning stroll at Sta. Monica beach today with my family and parents, though the weather was unexpectedly gloomy and chilly. Since we're in a roll, we planned to go to Disneyland again tomorrow if and when the weather would cooperate. My parents just realized that since they have gotten here, they haven't seen most of Los Angeles' attraction spots. Perhaps they thought that they were too old for it, or just plain too tired to go. Glad they changed their minds. So I'm taking advantage of it, my daughter and I. Spending quality time with them is awesome, I enjoyed every ounce of it.

Goodbye, Farewell

2005-04-20T23:06:00.000-07:00

So long, farewell to you my friends...
Goodbye for now until we meet again...

Sad to say that my Australian relatives have reached their month long stay here in the US. If I may say, it was definitely time very well spent. One of my craziest, impulsive, fun, and happiest month ever. In a matter of weeks, we've managed to bring them to Disneyland and California Adventure to Las Vegas; hopped to three different beaches; strolled, combed and shopped the outskirts of Los Angeles just to find the best deals in clothes, most especially bags; hung around the mall on weekends until it closes; and most of all, have known them a little better and made us a little more closer.

And so as we all went to take them to the airport, we cried our hearts out realizing that all of this is coming to an end. We said our goodbyes and farewells, our kisses and hugs, promises of soon coming back, and then it was time to leave.

Instead of being so sad and mournful about the whole thing, I wanted to end this with a somewhat happy note. I then remembered some words/phrases my relatives from Australia used instead of the usual words/phrases we're accustomed to. It's very different but it makes me remember them without shedding a tear. Of course, there's so much more terms and phrases but this were the only ones that meant something and sparked a cheerful memory.

Aussie	USA
bin	trash can
chuck it	thow it(in the trash)
photos	pictures
fairy floss	cotton candy
cabbie	taxi driver
lift	elevator
lolly	candy
rubbish	nonsense/trash

Vegas update

2005-04-18T22:09:00.000-07:00

Back from yet another long, tiring but fun weekend. Any acitivity involving out of town or even out of state trips is fine with me. You can never beat the whole experience of getting to see other places. If I only could do it for a living, I'd beg to have that job. Nevertheless, I can't compain with all the blessings.

Anyway, Las Vegas is still Sin City. As usual naked girls everywhere by nightfall. I meant half-naked girls on leaflets and some billboards. I guess it's just living up to its name. But for me it's a city of amazing display of lights, luxurious hotels and skyrise buildings. Truly an astounding place regardless of the saddening and sickening fact that women are merely regarded as a piece of meat. My grandmother on the way to Vegas jokingly said as we were inching along the busy highway, "Pati sa pagpunta sa impyerno ma-traffic!".(Even the way going to hell is congested!)

Anyhow, I tried my best to get as much good snapshots as I can. I finally witnessed the splendor of the Eiffel Tower. It's as close as I can get to France. I initially planned to somehow get in and ride a few floors up to see the view of from up there, but apparently a restaurant reservation is required. Some other time perhaps.

Off to Vegas...

2005-04-15T11:32:00.000-07:00

My parents came home last night but onlygot to see them this morning. So happy with all the goodies...lots of cute stuff back home. Anyway we all decided on the very last minute to drive to Las Vegas for the weekend. Wish me good luck on the slot machines...! (just kidding)

For the mean time, let kitty here entertain you.
Have a great weekend guys!

Welcome Back

2005-04-13T18:21:00.000-07:00

At approximately 10pm tomorrow, my parents will be coming back from a month long vacation in the Philippines. Miss them so dearly and am looking forward to spend more quality time. With everything going on, like family and school, I seem to be seeing them only during the weekends. Since I enrolled in a 7am class, it became impossible to visit on our usual Wednesday nights, since my daughter had to be in bed early, like 6 in the afternoon. Yup, that early. I pitty her when she looses three to four hours of sleep because of my ealry class and I know for a fact that sleep is a must especially for kids. So hopefully we could work something out on their return because I long for them to bond with my daughter as much as they can.

And of course, can't wait to see all the pasalubongs! My mom always brings a lot of stuff from Philippines, mostly clothes and accessories. I specifically asked her to buy me a set of pearl jewerlies, the one from greenhills. I love those, no matter how cheap or expensive they are. They're a classic. I said that's the only thing I wanted as a pasalubong. Just the thought of shopping for myself makes me all giddy. It sends shivers through my spine...I could not even imagine how much pocket money I have to save up when I think about the good and cheap stuff back home. Oh well, in a few more years, I hope.

For now, I am counting the hours. 11 more hours to go...

Beach Bum

2005-04-11T22:27:00.000-07:00

So refreshing to get out of the daily routine and bask under the sun. Yesterday I had the chance to do so. Beach hopped at Newport, Balboa and Laguna Beach. The mixture of sun and breeze is the perfect combination for a sun kissed tan (not that I needed it). Totally enjoyed the view, the people, the stores. May be the mere fact of just getting away from what you're used to was a much needed breather.

Face Analyzer

2005-04-08T10:41:00.000-07:00

Just for fun.

I find this site, which I stumbled upon Hanagirl's lovely blog, very interesting and amusing. As the name implies, it literally analyzes the features of your face and promptly comes up with a profile. Quite fascinating. Try Face Analyzer and find out who your celebrity match is.

Race Analysis

Personality Profile:

You particularly enjoy the traditional way of life. Having drinks with your friends, attending parties and relaxing while watching TV are some of the simple pleasures you indulge in. You may also enjoy physical exercise. Your driving force is to retire as early as possible, so that you can do the things you enjoy more often. Your main source of ambition comes from this desire.

You dont particularly like your job but you do it without complaining. You realize that the income that it provides is essential to your lifestyle. You are friendly yet competitive with your co-workers. This competitiveness may lead you to squander your earnings to match other peoples' possessions.

You operate most effectively when there is a set power structure, and the lines of authority are clear. You know your place in the ranks, you play by the rules, and will deliver what is expected of you. You do not care for responsibility; you would rather be care free.

Guess who my celebrity match is.

Jessica "Honey" Alba.
HA! Only in my dreams!!!

Reality Check

2005-04-08T10:21:00.000-07:00

Whew...I've been wanting to post since yesterday but apparently blogger has been experiencing technical difficulties. Or has it been my internet service provider(ISP)? I'm not sure, because whenever the weather's windy, our cable keeps losing its signal. Oh well, at least its up and running again.

Ok. On with my topic.

Since reality shows have been brought up, what is your favorite reality shows, if any? What makes it so enjoyable to watch from your point of view?

Mine is...

America's Next Top Model

Newlyweds Nick & Jessica

The Ashlee Simpson Show

Punk'd

The Apprentice

So long Nick & Jess

2005-04-06T22:10:00.000-07:00

"Is this chicken or is this fish? I know its tuna.
But it says chicken by the sea."
-Jessica Simpson

As I was doing my daily rounds of blog hopping and reading, I saw Ms. Kai's recent entry about the finale of MTV's reality show, Newlyweds, starring Nick Lachey & Jessica Simpson. There's something about these two that makes you glued on the TV. and keeps you wanting for more. I don’t know, but for me it would be Jessica's cute and glamorous everyday get-up, Nick's patience and their amazing chemistry on screen.

I remember this one episode about their trip to Louis Vuitton to get a bag for their little dog, Daisy. Nick nonchalantly commented on how ironic it is that the bag was more expensive than the actual dog. Something like that, or so from what I remembered. With everything they have going, I find them more sensible and practical (especially Nick) than any other celebrity (not that I know all the others). They seem to portray an ordinary, all-American couple, with a lot of money of course but still somehow manage to keep it real.

I don't regularly watch it on a Wednesday but I make it a point to catch the reruns. Aww...I will surely miss these cute, quirky, down to earth, romantic pair. Hope this wouldn't be the end of them.

Puma Girl

2005-04-05T19:51:00.000-07:00

Not too long ago I bought something that made me a tad happier than usual. For awhile now, I have been loyal to one sporty brand, PUMA. I usually go for anything from Nike to addidas, as long as it's on sale that is. But I realized that sometimes I'd be wearing an addidas cap and shirt, and then puma shoes. I felt mix-matched. I'm not stuck up or anything though. Kinda shallow of me I know, but hey I'm just a regular girl who loves fashion.

Okay. I then started my collection of anything puma and have been wanting to add a ball cap/hat to the set. Of course, as we all know, the retail price isn't so cute. I refuse to give in for 28 bucks worth of a simple cap/ball cap. And so last Sunday I was in total shock and awe to find it for 13 bucks only. I got this cute little pcp cap in navy blue and a tank top.

I love good bargains.

Monday Blues

2005-04-04T14:10:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's time change was a bit tiring and kind of stressful. A day before Daylight Saving Time (DST), I had it in my mind to turn back the clock even before the the actual transition to avoid having to loose one hour of sleep.

Sunday came and all seemed quite well. Wasn't late for church, and was well prepared for the day. After church though was an unexpected offer to go to camarillo outlet stores. Being a true blue shopaholic, I could not resist the offer and excitedly hunted for good bargains. I however did not realize how late it has been getting. 6pm seemed like early afternoon. As the stores slowly started closing one by one, I realized that the weekend was soon ending. Have to once again face the dreadful Monday blues.

As I came home, I could not wipe this grin on my face. This grin which only shows up on very special occasions, specifically when I have purchased something I've been eyeing. And it was also on sale...

Though I felt ready to call it a day, I still had the strength to drop by my in-laws to greet some expected visitors. It went surprisingly well. Still watching the time, as the minutes inched away. My goal is somehow be in bed before 9pm to make up for the lost hour.

We said our goodbyes and excused myself for an early, early class. As my daughter and I lay between the covers, I looked at the time.....it was 11pm. So much for beating DST.

I woke up this morning with a severe case of grogginess. I didn't like it. I felt robbed. But I still have my grin. So tired, yet so happy.

Lighten up will ya!
1. ...did you have to turn your clocks forward one hour this weekend?Yep.
2. ...what is the price of gasoline?$2.80+
3. ...which natural disasters, if any, do you have to worry about?earthquake
4. ...do you have a local newspaper, and if so, do you subscribe to it?nop
5. ...do you subscribe to a local cable company for television viewing?Direct TV
6. ...what is the speed limit on your road/street?25 mph
7. ...how far do you have to drive to the nearest post office?just around block
8. ...what is the average temperature in April?60-70's degrees F
9. ...what is the average temperature in December?50-60's
10. ...are your four seasons drastically different from one another?not really
Meme from Monday Madness

Zipadeedodah

2005-04-02T08:46:00.000-08:00

Zipadeedoda Zipadeedae my oh my what a wonderful day
plenty of sunshine coming my way!

Pardon me. I'm still in the Disneyland mode. The reason is, in a few days or so we'll be coming back for another round, now at California Adventure. They have this Two-fer promo for California residents, which gives us a chance to go in Disneyland and come back within 30 days for another park. I personally haven't been in the new park, so it's a first for me.

Anyway I'd just like to share this. Small world is a little boat ride wherein a wide variety of dolls dressed in different costumes representing countries all over the world can be seen, hence "It's a small world after all"... I instinctively waited for the Philippine doll to show up. Although all the others had an elaborate display of costumes, songs and dances, I'm still happy to see one little Philippine doll on the corner, looking very much like Imelda Marcos. At least we were represented...huh!

My Saturday morn in a nutshell
over sized tee/ white cotton jammies/ no socks(i almost always wear one)/ daughter watching Dora/ hubby off to a class/ still achy/ muscles a bit sore/ very bright & sunny today/ expecting a hot afternoon

Disneyland 2005

2005-04-01T10:52:00.000-08:00

The happiest place on earth

2005-03-30T14:51:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is a big day for my daughter. It's another chance to see her favorite Disney princess in the happiest place on earth..We're off to Disneyland tomorrow morning! I've been there before but it's the first time to experience it with my daughter. We're hoping that the crowd wouldn't be that big so we could enjoy the park without the hassle of falling in line for every ride. I'm planning to pack as light as possible. I learned my lesson not to bring baon anymore. It's useless. When you get there, all you want to eat is a freshly cooked burger with fries on the side, never mind the rocket high prices. A regular burger meal is about five bucks, over there its almost twice the price. What a rip off ... However, it's all for the sake of fun. The prices may be ridiculous but the smile on my daughter's face is priceless.

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Which Disney Princess are you?

Whether the Weather

2005-03-28T21:21:00.000-08:00

Weather pixies are just adorable. Mind you. They aren't just cute, their informative as well. I get so amused on how they change their clothes and surroundings to match the weather in a particular country and city. Along with my local pixie I decided to get one for Manila to compare and imagine what my parents, who recently went back for a month-long retreat, are dealing with. Just now I noticed that my weather pixie at Manila was wearing an eye-catching, green, two-piece bathing suit because it was a sizzling 90 degrees! I have forgotten how hot it could get back home. No wonder almost every blog I've visited today were talking about the beach. It's the perfect weather for basking.

Whether the weather be fine
Or whether the weather be not
Whether the weather be cold
Or whether the weather be hot
We'll weather the weather
Whatever the weather
Whether we like it or not.

Oh happy day!

2005-03-26T10:46:00.000-08:00

If you want to be somebody
If you want to go somewhere
You better wake up and pay attention

Sister Act 2 is on cable today, and I've been humming this chorus line as I write this post. So inspiring and catchy. Makes you want to get up and do something your heart's been yearning for. To follow your dream with passion as if there's no more tomorrow.

My Saturday morn in a nutshell...
flannel pjs/ oversized tee/ fave bathrobe soft as down/ enjoying sweet & sour belts/ daughter eating fruit loops cereal/ watching sister act2/ will go out with family/ waiting for hubby/ weather's just right/ little hazy but sun starting to shine a bit

When to say when

2005-03-24T08:04:00.000-08:00

We had just confirmed that preschool's out until next week. And so I let my daughter play around the jungle gym for a few minutes, to compensate for the missed daily dose of physical activity(sometimes hyperactivity). With nowhere else to go, and with our stomachs calling out for lunch, I suggested eating out at Shakey's, since I have been craving for chicken, most especially mojos. I inordinately wanted to order our lunch for to-go because buffet really isn't my thing. But my hubby, out of the blue, demanded the buffet, which I initially thought would be the best thing to do because it usually takes forever to wait for our order. I then, reluctantly agreed to his obvious desire to once again gorge upon the endless array of food.

And there we were, looking for a comfortable spot to sit on, specifically somewhere without anyone else to bother on either sides, because we seriously need space for our daughter's(and every other 3-year-old) constant fidgets and restlessness after finishing a meal.

Inside the smorgasbord area, I inched my way towards the greasy yet irresistible display of their specialty. This was in no comparison to the one at Mirage Hotel, from our recent trip to Las Vegas. It was the mother of all buffets. Every imaginable kind and variety of food was there. Asian, American, Italian, they had crab legs, lobsters, filet mignon, sushi the list goes on. The cheesecake, cappuccino flan for dessert, is by the way to die for, if not to die from. Shakey's may not be as big as the Mirage but the concept is still relative.

Ok. I had spaghetti, chicken and of course the mojos, which my daughter and I shared. Being the small and short girl that I am, I get stuffed up very quickly, and I refuse to eat more than what my mind is telling me to do in order to maximize the dollars.

This is why I rarely go in all-you-can-eat establishments. In my opinion, this should only be done once in every six months or on very special occasions. It just felt wrong to eat after the gastro intestines has reached its limit, let alone the collective health complications to come 40 years from now. I then remembered one of the original deadly sins, Gluttony. Oh yes, it seems insignificant and not so deadly at all but should not be taken for granted.

“The belly, when it is not restrained, destroys the virtues of the soul,” “It is not food, but the desire for food that is the cause of damnation.”
-Gregory

Don't get me wrong, I'm not this super spiritual buff and I am in no place to judge anyone and their eating habits. Everyone eats for many different reasons along with ranging amounts. To overindulge is what we all must be aware of.

After forkfuls of spaghetti and a few bites of chicken, even a little innocent girl knows when she's had enough. "Mom, I'm full!” She says as she hops down the bench, and unfailingly frolics around the table to entertain us and herself.

Thank you for the nail pierced hands...

2005-03-21T09:16:00.000-08:00

Thank you for the cross Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know Your forgiveness and embrace

Amidst all the hustle and bustle of life. To the things we do to survive. For our personal fulfillment and happiness. Let us not get off track from the real purpose of our existence. Of why we are placed here on this earth. It is easy to be caught up with the daily routine and immerse ourselves to things which may seem significant, but is truly incomparable to what God has done for us. Surrendering our life to the One who bares the scars of self-sacrifice, compassion, grace, forgiveness and most of all...love, must ultimately take precedence.

John 3:16
For God so loved the world, He gave His one and only son. For whosoever believes in Him will not persih but have everlasting life.

Wanna Get Lucky?

2005-03-17T09:31:00.000-08:00

Find a four-leaf clover
~this is a traditional symbol
of st. patrick's day to
represent the holy trinity.

Wear anything green
~the color of spring

Kiss the Blarney Stone
~if you happen to be in Ireland today, that is.

~Better yet, just eat lucky charms!